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Hello. Here is simply a disorganized log of my ratings of the new releases I've been listening to, because for some reason, even my Twitter nano-reviews have proved to be too taxing to organize in these hectic times. I've just been putting these in my phone notes as I listened, and I've been waiting for the time to be able to put it up on Dreamwidth and properly format it.

I'm less up to date than ever in K-Pop, which saddens me, despite the fact that this means I'm finally getting a real life outside of Twitter and K-Pop. I really can't just detach myself from a hobby that's carried my life for so many years like this! So, I figured the least I could do is keep up with comebacks of the groups I stan—and even that is proving difficult to fit into my schedule. (I'm even behind on BTOB content! I haven't even started Golden Spoon; can you believe this preposterosity!)

(I missed writing here a lot, but it doesn't seem like I'll be able to post anything new and whole anytime soon.  I would write a comprehensive update on every little detail of the events in my life these past months if I could! There's just too much. A lot more than I could have ever imagined happening to me is happening to me. I sincerely did not think going to college alone could singularly make my life this much more eventful. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing, because there are times it's really fun, but there are also an extensive amount of times this fun becomes overwhelming. It makes me think: am I built for this? Maybe I shouldn't be here; maybe I'm not built to have a friend group. I suppose time will tell. If next time I return with a platonically broken heart, you will know the result!)

Okay, anyway; to the song reviews. Let me explain briefly, though: I tried giving myself some freedom with the format, because I usually find myself becoming too much of a slave to order and pattern, that I eventually get way too stressed over that, eventually stripping it of leisure. I tried very hard not to fall into that, so there will be no rhythm and reason to the way I comment on these. There will be some songs with a paragraph of comments, and some songs with a mere number rating—it doesn't mean anything! I'm just trying to not cage myself in rules again. Also, this is just where I left off from my nano-review tweets. Why don't I just continue tweeting; isn't it the same thing? Nah, because the prospect of not being able to edit after I send it makes me overthink it way too much, and I will spend hours trying to think of the precise words, whereas here, I allow myself to just type shit that doesn't make senes since I have guaranteed access to renovate it.

My Scale:
10 - Unbeatable. God Tier. Literally the best thing in my life.
9 - Excellent.
8 - Great.
7 - Okay.
6 - Okay…
5 - I'm going to be honest. There is never going to be anything below 5 because I appreciate all music as music. (But mostly because I'll feel mean.)

MID-SEPTEMBER to OCTOBER 3RD (unordered, because i'm stupid)
KANGTA - Eyes On You7.5/10

LOONA - Luminous. The padding percussion acts as a great driving force behind this already-impelling song. The form is satisfying. I love the unique incorporation of unexpected sound effects—is that a swordfight clatter? After all this, though, I still have to say I liked Sick Love better! 9/10

ENHYPEN - One In A Billion. This is honestly fairly similar to what I foresaw for a soundtrack for this WEBTOON. The intro and/or buildup of the song went by too quickly, which is something that I typically dislike. The drop itself was underwhelming, but the “oh, ohh, ohhh” part of the chorus made up for most of it; I liked that. 8/10

Kim Jaejoong - Nobody Like You. Holy shit, I’ve been so used to hearing him sing heavy, dark rock songs, I forgot just how diverse his voice can be. This song hit like a tidal wave: coruscating brightness like an enrapturing snare. The sounds aren’t anything unseen of before, but it’s the genre that just so happens to fit my taste. I like it very much. 9/10

Choi Yoojung - Sunflower (P.E.L). This along with the rest of the album has such a compellingly cute feeling. 8.5/10

DIA - The Blinding Past. 7.5/10

NCT 127 - 2 Baddies. Not even a riveting pre-chorus? The parts that were previously the saving grace in experimental NCT 127 songs—the pre-chorus and bridge—didn’t even reach the excellence of its preceeders! The vocal mixing a bit rusty, as well… sorry, the whole Nokia-recorded effect is just not for me. I will say that how they layered the final ending chorus gave it a half-point bonus. 7.75/10

SORN - Nirvana Girl (ft. YEEUN). 9/10

BLACKPINK - Shut Down. God, I love this more than I expected to. The string sample gives it a superiorly unique aura. Although the melody itself is not very dynamic, it gets pure creativity points. 8.5/10

LAY ZHANG - VEIL. 8/10

RoaD-B - ICARUS. My dear, dear Sweetune—how could I ever thank you enough. 9/10

CNBLUE - Let It Shine. 8.75/10

NMIXX - Dice. I really can't decide if I like this or O.O better because I love them both very much. This is expeditiously going in the "i'm the joker but in a hot way" playlist. 8.75/10

MAKAMAKA - I Am. This is so SISTAR; I'm crying real tears of joy. 9/10

The Rose - Childhood. 8/10

Jun - Limbo. Nothing could have prepared me for how innately VIXX this sounds. 8.5/10

Jay B - Go Up. 8/10

Kep1er - Sugar Rush. 8/10

XIUMIN - Brand New. I like Feedback and Serenity so much more—and How We Do, but the Mark bias may or may not be kicking in. 8/10

CRAVITY - Party Rock. This isn't my sound, but there are some B-sides off the albums that I enjoyed, such as Colorful! 8/10

MIRAE - Drip N' Drop. Sorry, I love them, but it sounds so fucking generic. 7.5/10

EXID - FIRE. Oh, this concept… my bad, didn't mean to moan. Hani… Hani… Jeonghwa… this eyeliner. You can tell Hyojin has been producing for TRI.BE because this sounds exactly like a TRI.BE song. Maybe my emotion towards these girls is clouding my judgment more than I'm letting on, but I love this. 8.5/10
OCTOBER 4TH
ONEWE - Still Here. You all know how much I adore ONEWE’s sound, but this feels a bit repeated. 8/10

TREASURE - HELLO. The BLACKPINK-ass opening threw me so off-guard… I love it though, holy shit. This infinitismally close to the type of 2010s escapism EDM I was just begging to return after David Guetta and Bebe Rexha’s I’m Good dropped. 10/10

AB6IX - Sugarcoat. Okay, this was better than I anticipated from the teasers. I was getting a strong ASTRO Candy Sugar Pop vibe from it, so I was expecting something that sounded closer to that. This is a lot sleeker, though, and I fucking love it, actually. While the hooks are fairly mediocre, I’m really into this instrumental. 8.75/10

SEULGI - 28 Reasons. I was crazy excited for the music video for obvious reasons, and while I was a bit let down for it not being as cinematic as I had in mind, I’m always appreciative of the performance aspect of any song. These dark, clean-cut solos recently have been really doing it for me, if I’m honest. I can see there being a limit to how much I’ll be able to take though. The rest of the album also goes insane… is Los Angles even real? 8.75/10

Rocket Punch - Doki Doki Love. 8.25/10
OCTOBER 5TH
ITZY - Blah Blah Blah. These are some of the rare, less forced-sounding rap verses I’ve heard in a while among recent releases in K-Pop. The music video is so cool. 8.5/10

KINGDOM - Long Live The King. I do admit that the bulk of KINGDOM’s title tracks have the same gist—this one included—this somehow still stands out to me in particular. This is an easy favorite title track. This chorus is stronger than usual! Also Mujin looks absolutely insane with that purple hair. The new members also seem very promising! I knew good things were coming when I noted that the teasers looked like every ONEUS concept combined. 9/10

JAMIE - 3D Woman. This is like a 180 for her. This is so different for her, but I'm really into it. 9/10
OCTOBER 6TH
DKZ - Uh-Heung. Oh, that classic fingerstyle guitar sample that I have been whoring out for since the beginning of time has returned, this time at the hands of DKZ. The drop was pretty bold ramp up; I don’t dislike that, though—it’s the sudden hip-hop switch immediately after it. I’m a bit tired of post-chorus raps being so unnaturally inserted. I’d say this started out promising, but I began to lose interest as the song went on and the format lost individuality. 8.25/10
OCTOBER 7TH
The Rose - Sour. One of my favorites in the album, along with Cure and Time. I must say: I have some mixed feelings about Woosung’s perm. 8.5/10

Stray Kids - CASE 143. Aww, this doesn’t sound as outstanding as their past few titles. It’s like a discounted rip-off of Maniac. I don’t dislike this track inherently, but it’s just the subconscious comparison to Maniac that makes it feel not as spectacular as it probably is. (You hear it too, right? The format and the drop especially was drawn off of Maniac, like they were trying to recreate its fraternal twin. I love the music video, though, and it does sound Halloween-y! 8/10
OCTOBER 11TH
DREAMCATCHER - VISION. I'm so serious; why didn't they done a spy concept sooner… they look so hot. I will say that the CGI this time around seems a tad more shoddy than past projects, so maybe the production team was getting a bit ahead of themselves with this one. Although not immediately riveting, I like the chorus. The chord progressions are really smooth on the ears. 8.5/10

TAN - Beautiful Lie. Pink hair Changsun is too powerful. I feel like I'm focusing more on visuals than music at this point, and you know what? I don't give a fuck! Are you seeing Hyunyeop? Sunghyuk? This song has such an uplifting beat and enticing bass line. I love how full it is at all times, like every nook and crevice is filled with one riff or another. Anyway… more lore? 8.75/10

MAMAMOO - ILLELLA. There sincerely isn't a single title of theirs that isn't irresistibly catchy from the get-go, whether you despite to admit it or not. They have such a talent for making a the most unique-sounding compositions, both on main vocal melodies and backing productions. It's been a bit since I've heard a reggae beat in K-Pop as noteworthy, personally, as this (the last one of this altitude being Sukhumvit Swimming, of course—my one and only). The dance break was undeniably pretty disconnected from the rest of the arrangement, but I'll excuse it because it didn't downtune or hinder any of the ass-shakeibility momentum going on beforehand. 9/10
OCTOBER 12TH
Kwon Eunbi - Underwater. She is so pretty. I love how much stellar energy the chorus excavates, but the rest of the song just doesn't quite match up to that strength. The palette of the music video are a lot blander than what the song is giving—or at least, from the colorful splashes I'm hearing from it. 9

Lee Chaeyeon - Hush Rush. This is the most generic beat I’ve ever heard. It’s listenable but so boring… why did they do Chaeyeon like this; I’m so sorry, queen. The bridge gave it a desperate, minor boost in character, so at least it has some semblence of identity. I want to like this because the music video is cute, but I just cannot feel anything at all from it as of now. But whatever—it has a solid and noteworthy choreography, thankfully. Her strong suit is at least able to be showcased through this debut. My mutuals were right about the B-sides being prominently better. I loved all three immensely—with Danny claiming number one spot! It's just another case of the title track alone residing in mediocracy limbo, I suppose. 7/10

BAEKHO - No Rules. I started getting more into it when the beat dropped and the guitar came in, but overall, the song was pretty mild in terms of arrangement. Nothing really stood out, but it’s not bad—just mid in all aspects. On the album: the first two tracks both hit so hard. Festival in my car is like the lovechild of NU'EST's Fine and—as a pleasant realization—PENTAGON's Off-Road. I love it so much. 8/10

JO1 - SuperCali. Stirring up the spooky spirit! 9/10

UP10TION - What If Love. College has made it impossible for my excitement for even my ult’s excessively-rare-and-hence-so-long-awaited comeback to ferment… I’m impractically late on listening to this, but dear god, it sparked things through my veins. The 10s are in their era equivalent to PENTAGON’s Feelin’ Like! Sorry, I know I’m a bad music reviewer because the moment it comes to my ults, nearly everything is automatically nigh delectable to my brain. The eccentricity of the song is good at a dismissable level, but the things the pure existence of it makes me feel are not dismissable! Are we seeing this center Yein… ARE WE SEEING THIS CENTER YEIN? As for everything else they prepared: why is the rest of the album so fucking good? Even the token closing ballad (Rewind) is good… this is the best UP10TION album ever; are we being for real, holy shit. God, I'm sorry for being so late on listening to this. I'm sorry to the boys; I'm sorry to fellow Honeys; most importantly, I'm sorry to myself—how could I deprive myself the experience of listening to Angel for four whole days? On another deranged and psychotic note, half of these songs are giving me major disbandment vibes—namely Bloom and Starlight—but I didn't say that; you didn't hear me say that at all, right? 9/10

Park Jihoon - NITRO. Everything I said about UP10tion applies here. Except—this is genuinely awakening something inside me. I won’t speak further for now. Post-album-listen thoughts will be recorded, though: I am happy to announce that Jihoon has officially overcame his mid music era. Look at Midnight! I'm so proud of him. Now, I can rightfully confess that I seldom remember what Gallery sounds like, save the hook, and the B-sides of HOT&COLD got boring after the first week. 9/10
OCTOBER 13TH
Kep1er - We Fresh. It's a bit messy, but aren't we all nowadays. Most of the B-sides on the album didn't prove to be any more noteworthy, but if I had to choose one that was decidedly better than the rest, I would pick Dreams. 7.75/10.
OCTOBER 14TH
RAVI - 유행 지난 춤. Hip-hop is not my field of expertise, but I like the beat. Wonshik always has great energy. 8/10

Wonho - Don’t Regret. It’s pretty! The rhythmic guitar builds a veautiful atmosphere. The aesthetic of music video is right down my alley, as well, even if I feel like it doesn’t particularly match with my perception of the song’s aura for the most part. 8.5/10
OCTOBER 17TH
LE SSERAFIM - ANTIFRAGILE. Alright, this song didn't live up to the hype I saw for it, but I can definitely sense it being a grower. The camerawork for this music video is fascinating, however… the themes remind me of LOONA—Why Not? in particular. But god, Chaewon has me swooning so hard. 8.25/10

N.Flying - I Like You. This is so fucking cute; it reminds me of Yaho B-sides. It's practically the most N.Flying-like sound you can think of. My loves… I want to spare so much affection for this, since this is their last album before 두 얼간's enlistment, but they simply cannot resist choosing one of the lamest tracks on the album as title, can they? This is also meant as a compliment, by the way, because these B-sides are even better than this sweet little tune of a title track that I already love. 8.75/10

(G)I-DLE - Nxde. Their message is clear and bold. The concept is honestly really respectable, and I love how they executed it. The chorus is catchy and flamboyant enough to stick but not feel overdone in brass. It's another I-DLE smash hit. Even more Soyeon's raps were better fitting this time… Unfortunately, I still need to state the obvious: it's an opinion exploited for hate, but I will have to agree that she is overdoing it with the English lines. I don't agree with the part that it's ruining the song, though. Anyway, Shuhua is serving this choreography like a three-course buffet. Yuqi's voice is seriously driving me to borderline madness, and I can only imagine Soojin being here for this concept. 9/10

Lee Chanhyuk - Panorama. Let's go 80s synthwave—again! The song was in a format we've seen recycled many times by now, but I feel a hyper strong connection to it in an explicable way. The music video and the lyrics were way too resonant, and I definitely shouldn't be getting into all of this in a music review, but shit. Out of all the songs with depressing meanings behind them, I don't think I have ever seen one that expressed my own thoughts better. This is exactly what it feels like when I can't comprehend realities apart and existence seems unworldly. I'm in between space and time, and the crush of both of them is maddening. 8.75/10
OCTOBER 19TH
WEi - Spray. Okay. They knew they ate with these outfits, but it's another typical noise song with the exact same format as approximately three hundred other 4th Gen. boy group songs. It's not their best. 7.75/10
OCTOBER 21ST
ITZY - Boys Like You. I am genuinely confused as to where all this sudden ITZY hate is coming from because I love this. I want to call it outdated in the most endearing way. It's nostalgic and sweet—something picked right out of the Carly Rae Jepsen pop rock era. 8.75/10
OCTOBER 24TH
Pink Fantasy - Bizarre Story : Get Out. I’m so glad to see them back on this concept right on time for Halloween! The vocals are sufficiently mixed for the ghostly choir feeling. Harin's cuter timbre surprisingly especially brings out the haunts; I wish she had more lines, but then again, they all sounded good on this. The choreography is astounding as always. It just brims with nugu glory. The one objective complaint I have is the one note that flies during the chorus. Twice. I honestly didn't like that choice, and I can hear the exact progression of notes that would be in its place if they didn't go with that, and I like it a lot better. 8.5/10

KIHYUN - Youth. I loved his debut single an astronomical amount, so I'm understandably expectant for this, right? Did this live up to Voyager? No! This song is so, so lovely, and unfortunately just barely misses the threshold that our wondrous Voyager set high. No shame in sounding basic, though, especially if it's still a sound I like. The lyrcism is treacly wonderful. Kim Ina my beloved. Assuming the rest of the mini album promotes the same theme, this is inspiring me to find time to look into the lyrics of the tracks Hyungwon helped write for him, as well… it's so pure. I've been missing adequate pureness in my life. 9/10

Jo Yuri - Loveable. It's evidently not as well-developed as her other title tracks, but the drop that you can sense creeping up on you from the first note is gratifying enough. I think it's pretty well executed. Those echoey tambourines carry treasured innocent joy. I also think it's cool how this single album is titled in reference to her previous comeback but "in Minor", and even song is "in minor." 8.5/10
OCTOBER 26TH
CLASS:Y - ZEALOUS. The hook is disproportionately catchier than what the flat buildup set it up to be—in a way I want to say I literally do not find the rest of the song worth caring about besides the "zela-zela-zela-zelous" section. 8.25/10

CLASS:Y - Tick Tick Boom. God, maybe MBC really are onto something with these double title tracks. Both of these slap, and this method seems to be faring well, just going off of the views and the likes count. I wasn't expecting them to take a smooth Latin-inspired turn, but they were fantastic with this! It's on a balanced line between calm and lively that's incrediblly easy to listen to. On another note, the music video for this is hitting… maybe I've simply been extra emotional lately, but damn. 8.75/10

EPEX - 사랑歌. Hmm. It's a cool concept, and it clearly has zest. Though, it feels empty—like it only has seasoning but no base food. Anyway, nothing from them has reached anything close to Do 4 Me, and at this point, I'm losing hope in expecting to. 7.75/10

TEN - Birthday. Something about the vibe in its entirety just feels unaligned to me, but then again, it’s clearly modeled to spotlight a breathtaking choreography (and I mean very breathtaking), rather than showing off its own dazzle. Nevertheless, it incorporates a lot of sounds I like—even if it’s in the lamest ways possible. New Heroes and Dream in a Dream continue to reign superior—in composition and lyricism. Don’t get me wrong, I love it’s cuntiness, still. 8/10

Rie (OnlyOneOf) - because. This lovely OnlyOneOf solo series is officially past the half-way point! This song follows the precious trend of being light and touching, but in every series, one is bound to be the least favorite. I think, as of now, it may be this one. Also, that Call Me By Your Name reference was just… slightly… cringe. Ignoring that, though, it still objectively sounds less bejeweled as the previous tracks. 8/10
OCTOBER 27TH
ALICE - DANCE ON. They bring a dash of color into this monochrome reels of moments of my life right now. The slope of the melody has a touch of citrusy nostalgia laced in it, I swear. 8.75/10

TFN - AMAZON. It's going to take me a while to get used to that name change… even with how much we made fun of "T1419," it as least had some distinguishable feature to it, as laughable as it is. Now, it's just laughable, with no unique trait. Sorry, back to the song: it sounds no different from the majority of what they've been releasing. I will have to go with the "I have nothing against it, but it's just tiringly formulated and uncaptivating" response again. 7.75/10

Acid Angel from Asia (SSS) - Generation. Okay, I don't even stan them yet, but I just wanted to say that I really vibe with those "lalalalala"s. I need to stan them, though. My Chaeyeon is here… My BUSTERS baby… I'll come back to you soon. 8.75/10

VIVIZ - Rum Pum Pum. 8.5/10
OCTOBER 28TH
Jin - The Astronaut. This feels like a special occasion… I love the buoyant drive, abiding updraft. The Coldplay energy is definitely eminent. 8.5/10
OCTOBER 30TH
This is not related to K-Pop, but on this day, I listened to this new Rina Sawayama album that my friend recommended me, and it wholly saved my soul. It easily beats Rina and Sawayama for me… but I don't know how controversial of a take this is. It's so original; it has such a fresh flavor of different familiar sounds that are mashed together in just the right blend of stew to give it a scintillating magnificence. Holy (Til You Let Me Go), especially, is the one for me. I gasped, for real. Every song on here is definitely going to be up there on my Apple Music Replay for this year.
NOVEMBER 5TH
Park Bom - Remembered. 8.5/10
NOVEMBER 5TH
YooA - Lay Low. I love the vocal distortions; holy shit, this is so catchy. The rhythm is ingenious, and the synth layers are such a lovely fleece coat on my ears. 9.25/10
NOVEMBER 6TH
NATURE - LIMBO. Oh, the synth caught my attention from the start. They look glamorous! The arrangement of this is honestly speaking to me… it’s just the right amount of messy and layered to tickle my brain. The energy is fortified furthermore by the rapid, boiling bass line and the descending horns sound effect (is there a name for it?), both of which are surpising when they first hit your ears, but you realize that initial shock is what pulls you further and further into the song as it continues. 9/10
NOVEMBER 7TH
HIGHLIGHT - Alone. I have heard so many good things about this prior to listening; I was so hyped to get to it. Deep house typically takes a hot minute to entirely immerse me, since its prominent, groovy bass line either hits or misses at first. I love how all the pieces fit together on this track: their smooth vocals vocals over slick beats is objectively nice to listen to. The melody itself is a bit basic, in my opinion, but again, these all grow on me in due time. Dark HIGHLIGHT is definitely a sight to behold, though. On that note, ‘Yoseob looks ridiculously hot’ is something I never expected myself to say in this day and age, but that hairstyle takes it for me. 8.5/10

YooA - Melody. The song itself feels breezy and weightless; it’s cute! I’m not sure how I feel about the way she’s taking on the IU drift in her voice, but this song gives sweet feelings. 8.5/10
NOVEMBER 8TH
KIM JONGHYEON - Lights. He’s luring me in with this space concept… he knows… Okay, but anyway, it’s a spry and cheery song packed with everything bright and good. The vibes are undoubtedly immaculate. I just wish this was my type of sound. (The key shift into a really random hip-hop bridge caught me off guard, but I suppose it wasn’t really unpleasant. I bet TheBiasList hated that, though. How has he been lately? I haven’t had the time to read up on his website in ages.)8.25/10

SEVENTEEN - DREAM. Okay, I sincerely hate to be that person, but their inspirational UNICEF-promotion style is getting old already. 8/10
NOVEMBER 9TH
CRAXY - Poison Rose. The visuals in this music video are so cool, namely the piano playing; that was nice. This song has lots of enticing elements, like the heavy, resonating bass throughout the chorus creating outstanding contrast. I quite like the style, and the vocals were solid! 8.75/10
NOVEMBER 10TH
Xdinary Heroes - Hair Cut. It's unique, yet not exactly down my alley. I personally still wish for more of an actual "band" sound from them, but of course, that's all subjective. 7.75/10

ICHILLIN’ - Draw (MY TIME). I think the pre-chorus was creative, but overall, nothing shone at all. It lacked a gleam that makes it interesting to hear. I suppose I could see myself potentially listening to this in certain moods. Those moods would come very rarely, though. 7.75/10
NOVEMBER 11TH
AleXa - Back In Vogue. The hook goes hard. She captures the showtime opulence so well. 9/10

Jeong Eunji - 나에게로 떠나는 여행. Oh my god, she devours this light pop rock genre. It reminds me of Younha. 9/10
NOVEMBER 12TH
TRENDZ - VAGABOND. It’s not bad. I think this may be my favorite title track from them. Although their sound variation has pretty much been a solid beeline since their debut, this one just leaves a slightly better taste in my mouth. 8/10
NOVEMBER 13TH
Kim Sunggyu - Like a dream. 8/10
NOVEMBER 14TH
Chen - Last Scene. I don’t think the chorus was built to what it was meant to be. The instrumental is minimalistic throughout most of it, which is great, as it places more emphasize on his vocals alone. It also makes the ending stand out more when the orchestrals pull through in a long brewed forte. I would simply ask for more dynamics. 8.25/10

VERIVERY - Tap Tap. The off-beat verses are really throwing me off. This is one of the cases where I… dislike how disjointed the sections of this song is. Man, this is hard to rank because I love the chorus on its own, but I can’t stand the key change in between. It’s a shame; this has all of the material—even the concept and dance are so charming—it’s just unfortunately organized. 8.5/10

YooA - Selfish. Finally, the big boy title track. The previous two have been wonderful, so I had held up the same standards for this! Maybe I shouldn’t have, though, because while I admit it’d be undoubtedly catchy on its own, compared to the pre-releases, it can only sound generic. I love the choreography, though—I love the snappiness. This comeback is making me see her in a new light. Her voice has such a broad range of timbre… I feel like every song sounded like a different person. I suppose that’s a skill on its own! 8.25/10

FIFTY FIFTY - Lovin’ Me. I know nothing about these girls, but I think this song is just swell and right down my taste alley. My only complaint is the vocal mixing, as I am usually not one to enjoy a muffled or staticky vocal track when it lasts the whole song, whether it was intentional or not. 8.75/10
NOVEMBER 15TH
DRIPPIN - The One. Okay, this is nice. This is the superhero race-pace done well. I was expecting a metallic, noisy drop for the chorus, but this is nice! Even when the noise drop did inevitably arrive at the bridge, it was honestly pretty tolerable and well-fitting. I love how consistent the rhythm is nearly the entire way through. The rest of the album, however, is fucking scrumptious. Silence would be one of the newborn songs that occasionally comes along and reaffirms me that I like 4th Gen. boy group music. 4th Gen. boy group music is my friend.8.75/10

VICTON - Virus. I liked it the very first few seconds because we all know how I love ethereal synths. Then, I didn’t like it because it immediately interjected the wonky bass line that never goes anywhere. Then, I liked it again when it brought back pretty rain drop synths throughout the chorus. This song was a rollercoaster, to say the least. It feels pretty unorganized, but I can’t dislike because there are so many elements I like. Also, Subin. Hey… if Chan leaving means Subin gets distributed this much more screen time, then maybe he should sit in that corner and think about what he’s done a little longer; I don’t know, man. The second track on the album, Time Chaser, may be one of my new favorite songs by them, though… 8.5/10
NOVEMBER 16TH
JUST B - ME= (나는). Damn, they knew exactly how to get to me by starting off with that pretty rhythm guitar. The video’s visuals are aiding this song’s affect immensely… this lighting is exactly how this song feels: sanguine and assured, the sunset that promises to lead to the next day. I genuinely love this sound so much, and I think it’s the type to even grow on me more and more. 9/10

woo!ah - Rollercoaster. My camp girl ambassadors are back, bringing the disco bass and Y2K pop synths with them. This is so, so pretty—so, so lovingly saccharine. I feel like this reminds me more of the stars than Catch The Stars. 9/10

SECRET NUMBER - TAP. Hello? Is the return of tropical-house-R&B-influenced K-Pop in the middle of this globally-warmed-winter? I’m fucking elated. 9/10

STAYC - POPPY. Okay, this is adorable. You can’t hate this. I love the beat drop so much; the rest of the song simply dulls next to it. 8.75/10

ARTBEAT - MAGIC. 8.25/10
NOVEMBER 15TH
CSR - ♡TiCON. I feel like I lack critical thinking right now because all I can think to say is “I love this,” but I’ve basically been saying that for every song at this point. I don’t know! I love the 8-bit sound effects! I love how much fun is laced in these rhythms! 8.75/10
NOVEMBER 18TH
B.I - Keep me up. God, the release of this album is probably, like, the most anticipated release on my agenda ever since BTBT dropped. And would you look at that! Hanbin secured the renown circle building that every K-Pop group with lore has filmed a music video at! Okay, time to comment on the actual song. It took a minute for it to get good good, but when the vocal distortions came in at the pre-chorus, that was when shit started going down. I can’t not comment on the choreography. Hanbin is seriously the most talented motherfucker ever; I seriously cannot wrap my head around how he does… all of this—how he writes, produces, directs, and dances this will on top of all that he already does. He’s the definition of an artist and performer at heart. (On side note, I will say, though, I'm a bit disappointed he didn't put the version of BTBT without Soulja Boy on this album; for some reason, I completely convinced myself he would. However, with the way this album saga is seemed to be set up, I'm assuming after part two there'll be a "special" or "compilation" version of these albums, and maybe then, he'll have the non-Soulja Boy version of BTBT attached as a bonus track. Damn… I just want to listen to a cohesive, fluid version of BTBT without losing the immersion to Soulja Boy's verse. I think I should clarify that I don't despise his feature; I would just prefer the version with Hanbin and DeVita alone over it any time.) 9/10

CORBYN - BURN. New Corbyn music… GUYS! NEW CORBYN MUSIC! This guy always fucking hits. He does the melodic edgelord hip-hop beats right. 8.75/10

FIFTY FIFTY - Higher. New Corbyn music… GUYS! NEW CORBYN MUSIC! This guy always fucking hits. He does the melodic edgelord hip-hop beats right. 8.25/10
NOVEMBER 19TH
Ryu Sujeong - PINK MOON. City pop Sujeong? Sign me the fuck up… you don’t understand how much I missed her singing. Her styling is literally so cute in this. 8.5/10
NOVEMBER 21ST
EVERGLOW - Ghost Light. BITCH! No one told me EVERGLOW collaborated with TheFatRat… I literally love this dude’s music. And he did not disappoint here; this is so fucking good. I feel like it legitimately perfectly merges his style over EVERGLOW’s signature power. This is crazy. I can’t believe they did something together, and I wasn’t aware until hours after its release. Sheesh! 9/10

&TEAM - Under the Skin. I haven’t been keeping up with whatever HYBE has been up to recently in the slightest. I’m gathering with every context clue that this is the resultant song for a new (another) survival show boy group. This has made no noise on my Twitter timeline, but I’m guessing that may have something to do with either it being a Japanese group or me barely being on Twitter nowadays. Anyway, I do like the song. I tend to always have a thing for survival show-tinged songs—the spiritedness, the sentimentality, the hope intertwined. Honestly, this also sounds like it could be something straight out of the title track rejects file for TXT’s emo era. 9/10
NOVEMBER 22TH
BoA - Forgive Me. First, I want to say she looks glorious with this gritty, fierce concept. She’s a slayer anytime, but no matter how much slay she puts in it, it doesen’t make this song that much more enticing to me. It’s a fine song, but there’s nothing particularly remarkable about it. I like the rowdy rock elements and her belting on it, though. 8/10

TEMPEST - Dragon (飛上). I’m so sorry… this is their most mid title track. What happened? They were on a great route, being an oasis of freshness in the modern day 4th Gen. boy group generic noise pool. They fell down the hole too soon… Hopefully they’ll be able to pull themselvees back out and return to what they had before in their next album. 7.75/10

NMIXX - Funky Glitter Christmas. They just really had to beat everyone else to the Christmas releases. Good for them! This is like a cute medley mixed with a twist. It would likely never cross my mind to listen to this again though! (JYP’s best Christmas song remains Christmas EveL… that was unique and innovative and every bit brilliant.) 8/10

ONEUS - Dopamine. Only the ending-bridge really stood out to me, sorry. That part alone gave it the extra 0.25 point boost. 8.25/10
NOVEMBER 23TH
TO1 - 얼음 땡. It has the same tone of funkiness as 1TEAM’s Ullaeli Kkollaeli… and we all know the emotions I have clinging onto that. 8.75/10
NOVEMBER 24TH
Kang Daniel - Nirvana (Feat. pH-1, WDBZ). Like album, like repackage: delectable. Man, I love this guy. 8.75/10
NOVEMBER 28TH
Red Velvet - Birthday. The hook was just as underwhelming as the unexciting build-up. At least the RV charm is still there and distinguishable, though. In a way, they can never really go wrong with the signature choral harmony. 8.25/10

Mill (OnlyOneOf) - beat. This is an interesting divergence from the previous songs… I kinda love it. Like, it threw me off at first, but it’s so not bad. Ending at the damn phonebooth again… the lore, the drama! 8.5/10
NOVEMBER 29TH
KARA - When I Move. Alright, setting all emotions aside, setting all sobs and tears during their MAMA stage aside, I will, on oath, produce an objective review of this song. This might me my favorite 2nd Gen. group revival comeback of this year. They haven’t lost a single ounce of their glamour and skill; it’s genuinely insane. While it doesn’t really feel as on character for their original sound as, say, Girls’ Generation’s group comeback, I must admit this undoubtedly suits them just as well. Like, they eat this up so much; I’m so sorry, they just do! Now, adding back in my Kamilia feels: fuck the quality of this is ineffable. I shiver every time the beat drops… the power in their vocals is still unparalleled even after all this time. I love everyone. I love everything. I’m so emotional. I missed all of them. I miss all of them so much. Youngji being alongside Nicole and Jiyoung… my heart, my fucking heart is so full. They’re so gorgeous, my god, they are stunning and haven’t aged a day in any aspect whatsoever. I watched their Killing Voice recently, as well, and I could not fucking believe how they were able to reproduce the exact tones, timbres, harmonies as those CDs a decade later. It genuinely baffled me and awakened way too many feelings. The moment Seungyeon sang that first note I felt the world spinning. I had no idea how badly I needed them back until now. How much is it to pray this won’t just be a mere one-time thing? (Please don’t answer that.) 9.5/10

ASTRO - 가장 좋아하는 사람에게 이별을 말하자. Damn! I had no idea they were having a Japan comeback at all, so imagine my shock to see Eunwoo’s face in my recommended with the letters “M/V” attached below him. Anyway, I’ve actually been quite into piano-heavy soft tunes lately (for studying reasons… ugh), so this really came at just the right time for a good opinion of it. Fantagio you sly bitch! Sanha sounds extra nice in this, by the way. His voice fits this song like a puzzle piece. 8.5/10
NOVEMBER 30TH
ATEEZ - Paradigm. Hmm, this is one of their worse title tracks. Still, it’s decent. The chorus just was in no way as cohesive and drilling as their others. 8.5/10

P1Harmony - Back Down. Cute. Quirky ass video. I don’t have much to say about the song, though. It’s nothing differential from their other title tracks. 8.25/10

ITZY - Cheshire. THIS IS MY FAVORITE FROM THEM. EASY. She is a splendid, pristine specimen for my “i’m the joker but in a hot way” playlist. This is also absolutely their best bridge. I love Yuna. 8.75/10
DECEMBER 1ST
RM - Wild Flower. Namjoon’s reformed style of solos have been right down my alley. It’s cinematic, grandiose, and has a touch of gleam. Youjeen has a magnificent voice that powers the effect. I’m actually highly excited to listen to the rest of this album. (Also, “flowerwork,” I hear?) 8.75/10

XEED - Dream Land. I don’t know who these kids are but there’s so much good material in this song. The random trap breakdown verse was annoying, but I’ve gotten used to it enough nowadays. Other than that, though, I like how bright the rest of it sounds—and it’s not in an overbearing superhero kind of way. It’s just energetic! 8.5/10
DECEMBER 2ND
Yein - Bus. Why is this the best indie ballad I’ve heard in a while. I love the subtle lilts in her voice. It blankets the song with a delicate and dulcet ttenderness. This is so precious to me. The just right, precise dose of gentle longing in the chorus is too wonderful to my ears. 9.5/10

CORBYN - Cold. It’s impossible for this man to miss. The muffled percussion build atmosphere. There’s some really well-placed cut-offs. As always, I love those orchestral instruments—and those vocals… man! 8.75/10
DECEMBER 6TH
Seo Inguk - Fallen. 8.25/10

THE BOYZ - All About You. 8.25/10

MINHO - CHASE. The SHINee solo saga being officially complete holds extreme satisfaction to me. While I quite enjoy the chorus of this—it’s light and agile, skims across the ears—the “running, running, running” part felt a little lazy and generic. The beat is also a bit too repetitive for my liking, but all in all, it’s not badly composed. 8.5/10
[NOW ENTERING: INTENSIVE HOLIDAY SEASON]
DECEMBER 7TH
C9 - Merry Merry Christmas. I love Younha. This honestly has such a heartwarming chorus. I’ll have to giveit extra points for that. Maybe I’m just soft. 8.25/10
DECEMBER 9TH
Weeekly - Happy Christmas. This is a more traditional style of Christmas special, yet somehow also one of the more enjoyable ones I’ve heard so far this year! 8.5/10
DECEMBER 13TH
WEi - Gift For You. Christmas songs in minor keys are the best, but this one honestly felt like it had no essence. The producer was probably rushed and that’s underestandable. 8/10
DECEMBER 14TH
Red Velvet X aespa - Beautiful Christmas. I’ll be honest, this is not my type Christmas song—too reliant on the power of friendship and not enough on the actual holiday magic. 7.75/10
DECEMBER 15TH
Super Junior - Celebrate. Okay, I’m vibing with the sparkliness, but the refrain is arguably a bit boring. I have to say, the gradual and consistent build to the end saved it a bit. 8.25/10
DECEMBER 16TH
NCT DREAM - Candy. There’s nothing to say; I love this song, and this remake gave me such an intense rush of euphoria. The Dreamies have to do Happiness next… I’m imagining Jaemin doing scrinkly Woohyuk’s rap. I love this Candy one too much, I’m telling you I need more already. Also, I cannot explain it but Renjun is too perfect in this. I can feel my heart ripping apart. 9/10

CHUNJI (TEEN TOP) - 이별이 늦어져서 미안해. My babe Chunji finally gets the opportunity to debut solo and TOP MEDIA gives him the lamest ballad ever… it’s alright, I suppose I just have to accept it at this point. 7/10
DECEMBER 19TH
NewJeans - Ditto. Although certainly dreamy and atmospheric, the sectionality of the overall form is a bit too blurred for my personal taste. However, I can’t deny it’s well-made with an engaging flow and tempo! I do like it as a song, but I just don’t see myself listening to it extremely often. 8.5/10

Ha Hyunsang - When Winter Comes. 8.25/10

Apink CHOBOM - You are the inspiration (I will give you all reply). 8.25/10
DECEMBER 21ST
Stray Kids - FAM. Okay, I've already heard the Japanese version ages back, but I didn't know the lyrics then so this is hitting way different—especially with the music video. God, I love these guys so much. I love when groups make a song about themselves: not about fans, love, fame… just them appreciating each other. Also, "Every day, every night, you can always see the stars; freckles like constellations" has to be the loveliest line of lyrics of ever. 9/10
DECEMBER 22ND
Moonbyul - PRESENT. 8.5/10
DECEMBER 23RD
Vernon - Black Eye. 9/10
[INTENSIVE HOLIDAY SEASON CONCLUDED]
DECEMBER 28TH
WayV - Phantom. The is actually pretty interesting. I’m enjoying the spooky continuance; they grabbed onto the essence and made it chillingly powerful. They all look hot, too—emphasis on Ten and Xiaojun… and Winwin, whew. 8.75/10
DECEMBER 30TH
ATEEZ - HALAZIA. The visuals and choreography are insane as usual. I automatically like it, for the genre is right down my lane, but I have to say it dosen’t seem to possess the ability to immediately hit like so many of their previous songs. Perhaps it’s in a structure that I’ve grown way too accustomed to? They’ve fallen victim to the lame anti-drop trend. That being said, the hardstep bridge breakdown was redeeming; at least there was something that sounds distinguishable! 8.75/10


I will continue updating this as I go, until whenever I feel confident enough to either return to tweeting or begin a new post. Also, no, as much as I want to, I will not put myself through tagging every single artist I'm putting on here—at least for now.
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As I mentioned in my last entry, I introduced my sister to the art of toploader decorating, and together, we made a few!

toploader deco

Joshua was the first one we made together with those Amazon Christmas stickers because we couldn't find anything else at the moment.

My sister made Sunwoo on her own! Meanwhile, I made Ireh on my own. The Ireh is still my favorite one.

The next day, we worked together on Minhyuk. (We were going for a space theme, but it didn't really work out, as we noticed our lack of cute star stickers. I think it ended up looking more like an underwater aesthetic, since those big stars seem more like starfish.

I made Eunwoo by myself last. I'm not sure what concept I was going for there, but it didn't turn out the way I imagined. I think I was trying for a monochrome white one that could be paired with any picture, but I centered the opening towards the right, due to that being the direction Dongmin is facing, so in the end, it still won't fit for anyone.

Anyway, I hope I get to make more in the future. I'll look for cuter stickers, too, because everything in this picture were Hallmark stickers bought from Walmart. I should get a little case for them too, so I can hang them on a bag or something…

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Aug. 24th, 2022 10:24 pm
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Hi. I have neglected this journal for a hot while (besides the sudden ONF album review that popped up last week, but that was unintentional—it was just because I got sick of cramming my sentences into tweets and, in an instinctive flurry, flung the rest of it over here).

There's reasons besides burnout on why I left this journal for dead for over a month. I wanted to provide an explanation—to the approximately zero people who are reading this. It's mostly for myself, a justification to placate my own weltering guilt and discomfort of going quiet on here without a word.

记录, etc. )
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[originally this twitter thread—of which these five songs took me over an hour to review because of the ridiculous amount of time i spent on trying to make the damn sentences fit in the thread. i realized halfway through that i seriously should've just done it on dreamwidth in the first place, but alas! it was too late. i figured i would simply transfer what i have of it over and jot on any additional ideas here. i won't be separating what's newly added and what was in the original live review thread; i'm too lazy. i will, however, edit in proper capitalization.]

It's been a while since I've live-tweeted an album listen. Evidently, the chance has arrived, in both the form of motivation and material: SPECIAL ALBUM [STORAGE OF ONF] obviously deserves a special treatment.

DISCLAIMER: Prepare for a… comparatively biased assessment. An unexpected anniversary comeback in the dead midst of full-group enlistment will do that to motherfuckers—particularly, a motherfucker in the category of mentally unstable Fuse.
1. Your Song. The ingredients of this are just so sweetly and ideally concocted. It has a crystalline stroke of sentimentality that holds just the perfect amount of, well, everything we missed from them during this hiatus.

And god, I love Seungjun's part of the chorus. He has a sort of childish lilt to his voice… I'm not quite sure how to describe it… it's feathered around a hardened syrup base. His voice sounds like the embodiment of innocence and nostalgia, which both are core pieces of this song's tenderness. This song just sounds so tailored to his voice, guys; I don't even know where I'm going with this either. I just, I… I, he… I…

On my second or third listen, I noticed the bells (vibraphone?) that was added to accentuate the melody in the latter half, from the "na na na" part through the quieter end of the bridge. It sounded almost Christmas-y; it gave the track yet another tone of uplift. The crashes of synth landed at all the right intervals; the guitar riffs are delicately integrated as to crack open whatever's sparking inside your heart.

This is a majorly treble-focused song, so I think the sonic depth was sacrificed a bit, but it was all for a good cause. It feels light, it feels bright, it feels like everything happy in between, like a carefree childhood adventure. Tying it off with Hyojin's lofty high note, we have The Most Special Song Of The Year (In My Heart).

Hooks: 8.5
Production: 8.5
Longevity: 9
Bias: 8.5
RATING: 8.6

2. Runaway. This was the one i was most looking forward to after the highlight medley! Actually, the chordal rhythm from the start to halfway through the chorus is so common—it almost got me worried that it was going to sound uninspired and, worst of all, boring (and I was fearing for my life during those ten seconds, honestly, because I was previously so sure that this was going to be my favorite)—but when they pulled in the accidentals at "run away, let's run away, let's run away," I could not stop smiling. Then, the deal was sealed.

Of course, that little quirk was not enough! They had to pull one last surprise (is this brilliancy really a surprise, though, when it comes to MonoTree—and Minkyun?) attack when the strings began to slowly fade in. They started as the faintest of tremolos at the tip of the bow, growing from beneath Changyun's voice, before coming forth with a delicious soli, until eventually melding into Hyojin's imminent killer note.

Something else I found interesting was the mandolin-sounding instrument in the second verse. The more I paid attention to it, the more it reminded me of the "slowly walking through fire" part in DRAGON by iKON. This has nothing to do with anything; it is just a note my head made.

Overall, though, I think the apotheosis of this particular song lies in its hooks and vocal melody compartment, rather than the instrumental production itself. To conclude: my intuitions were right to begin with. This is indeed my favorite (new) song on this album.

Hooks: 9
Production: 8
Longevity: 9
Bias: 9.5
RATING: 8.9

3. Traveler. Oh, my sweet little token ballad B-side. I'll admit that I'm not the first person to go to if you want a ballad judged, but I can definitely identify a well-arranged ballad when I hear one. Are you hearing Wyatt? Are you hearing Yuto? (I can geek about my adoration for Yuto's vocals another day, but not today. I will need a lot more free time reserved to do that to my maximal satisfaction.) I'm so obsessed with the fluctuations in their voices and how they blend—how MK's distinct timbre can fit impossibly naturally with mellower songs like this.

The harmonization is remarkable, not even just with each other, but with the chords below. The way they interact with the layers in the initial production makes them sound like just that: their voices sound like instruments. Yeah, I'm about to get real corny. I'm serious, though, when I say that as soon as these guys return, I need them to get on a radio show and sing this—stat.

Hooks: 9
Production: 8
Longevity: 8.5
Bias: 7.5
RATING: 8.25

4. GUCCI. PULL UP WITH THE DUBSTEP SOUND EFFECTS! I can't even think of anything intelligent to comment because this is so down my lane, feeding my brain pure steroids and ramping adrenaline to sky heights. It's like I'm alive and braindead; I'm immobile and uncontrollable; I'm a cyborg and an alien. I'm a rabid hamster in a tiny glass box, bouncing off every surface at a considerable percentage of the speed of light.

Honestly, it sounds like something you would whip up on educational BandLab when you're high on caffeine at ass o'clock in the morning, 40 minutes before the assignment on the hardcore electronic pack is due—but not the lyric-making, though. No, you would've had these verses written weeks in advance from the deadline. "G, U, double C and I'm so GUCCI" is prose that would require days of meditation and brainstorm to chisel into the pristine, ingenious paradigm that it is. And by the way—I mean this entire paragraph in the absolute best way possible.

The high-pitched, synthesized techstep portamentos zipping around during the chorus are a bit obnoxious, not going to lie. We can have good noise music without that glissading sad excuse of a second melody, thank you very much, so there will be some point deductions there. On a brighter side, the wobble bass usage was wonderful—grungy and reverberating.

Hooks: 9
Production: 8.5
Longevity: 8.5
Bias: 9
RATING: 8.75

5. My Song. I can envisage a picturesque painting: sundry flowers blooming in a flurry, a quaint stone path unfurling like a fairytale, a phantasmagoria of wonder and fantasy. "Magical" would be the best way to describe this song. It sounds like the thawing of a long winter into the warmest and most serene of springs.

It presents idyllic tides that wane and wax with the orchestra—a crescendo to the climactic finale that grows in beauty and tenderness. It's straight from the heart. The spell is cast the moment the chorus begins, falling into a comfortable and basic waltz. (And by 'basic', I'm referring to 'familiar'; anyone with a hint of a classical music background must find some cozy sensibility in this three-step rhythm, right? Just me and my vivid memory of practicing Minuet in G on the violin excessively?) The enchantment sets in with the tailing arpeggios propelling Wyatt's rather subdued solo.

My favorite part might simply be the musical break towards the end; the way the stacked harmonies of their voices fade into a glorious violin solo was so lovely to me. Maybe, this is all only me, and I just have a soft spot for a nice symphonic arrangement! (I had this realization this when I already saw an oomf call this song boring.) Whatever the case, I know I'll get attached to this song's feeling the most—even despite my evident love for Runaway.

Hooks: 9
Production: 9
Longevity: 9
Bias: 9
RATING: 9

I had ideas of going through the five remastered tracks and pretending it was my first time listening to them, but the exhaustion of five hours of sleep caught up to my incompetent ass and got the best of me. Instead, I'll just jot little notes of what I noticed in them that were differential from the originals—besides, you know, the glaring lack of Minseok's voice.
That closing "baby you're special / you make me feel complete" is hitting so different now.

Did they change the words at the rewind part in We Must Love, or does it just sound different? Ah, and there's a reverb at the end now!
(A kind oomf had informed me that, as a matter of fact, it was changed: it's now Seungjun saying "I miss you." Now, this is when I admit that my heart combusted on the spot—my fucking world imploded around me that very groggy morning in these Febreeze-smelling Airbnb bedsheets. I MISS YOU TOO, BITCH… THAT WAS SUCH A SINISTER, CLEVER MOVE… FUCK YOU!)

How hard the first choir hits in If We Dream always jolts me awake, but it's so good. That was an artistic choice.

I didn't manage to catch Yuto's VLIVE later the evening of the album release, even though I vowed to voluntarily be aggressively force fed anything he says or does within the next 48 hours of the comeback. He said some things that made me ache, though. What do you mean, "I've been listening to these songs alone for the past eight months, and I've been really, really, really, really waiting for this day so I can play the songs for FUSE. I'm glad I can listen to them with FUSE now." You can't do this to me… I'm serious; the tears welling behind my eyelids are stinging. He also declared My Song as his favorite track, and I must say, he is so real for that.

…I MISS THEM! I MISS THEM, DAMN IT, AND I MISS MINSEOK! :minsupoundingpillowgif:
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Alright, just bear with me if none of this is coherent because my brain is in so much pain from being awoken earlier than necessary for a Zoom call and bingeing two movies in a row from my laptop. (This situation seems to be a reoccurring theme, doesn't it?)

A little background on my current placement in the Marvel and MCU fandom: ever since the release of Hawkeye, I spontaneously dropped out entirely from this interest… for a reason unbeknownst to me. (Okay, maybe that reason can be dug up if I do some further introspection, but that's not what I want to use this time for right now.) It was kind of concerning, though. Like, I was a crazy Marvel fanatic up until the run of their first Disney Plus shows. I lost the draw and immersion almost out of the blue, and my previously prevailing interest was just gone in the blink of an eye. There was no motivation to pick up on the shows, and eventually, several movies were released, and I didn't go see any of them—Eternals, Spider-Man: No Way Home, and Doctor Strange in the Multiverse of Madness all passed by just like that. I kept promising myself that I would catch up, that I can't just let this franchise go so easily, especially since it had grown to be such an integral part of my passion. I never did it, though. My mom ended up watching a couple of these movies without me because I kept stalling on my vow to watch it with her.

It was halfway through the summer, and I still haven't made any efforts in starting my grand comeback. Alas, my saviors came in the form of Janet and Kate dragging me to see Thor: Love and Thunder yesterday, when they and my sister returned from summer camp. I almost declined, to be honest, because I would feel so guilty about not watching these in order. I did end up going. I felt fine afterwards. The movie was cute, and Tessa Thompson is so fine. Then, I began to feel the flare spark again—maybe, not all is lost; maybe, it's coming back.

So it did: I got home and pulled up Eternals on oomf's Disney Plus account that I'm using and watched it with my mom—that was the only one she didn't watch on her own. The next day (today), I found the remaining two films on some 123movies bootleg in fantastic quality, and I binged both of those in one go earlier. (As I'm typing this, I am now realizing that I could've just watched Multiverse on Disney Plus, and I'm not sure why I didn't think of switching back.) Either way, the result is the massive headache and eye strain that I have going on right now. I would go to sleep, but it's not even 11 P.M. yet, so that won't do! I'm here to release my final thoughts on these four films now. It'll be a good way to organize my thoughts before I—hopefully am able to—plunge back into catching up on the new shows, as well as some of the older ones. (Is Daredevil still on Netflix?)

I'll go in order of release, then.

why am i on steroids in writing and expressional fluency only when i'm sleep deprived? )
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What if I said ITZY were just testing the waters?

The preview of their upcoming comeback title track Sneakers was not received well on Twitter. This was a paramount surprise to me. I understand that the contrast between the idiosyncratic track and the stately teasers would've caused some stir and discombobulation, but the sheer amount of backlash I saw was just staggering… and confounding.

It simply sounds like an ITZY song! This music style shouldn't be this huge of a shock, despite whatever vibe the concept photos gave off. Is this not just their signature sound? Was this not what you signed up for? To be fair, their entire concept revolves around being different and proud of their distinguished style no matter what people think of it, and the dauntless, wacky, slightly musically questionable songs they release are a perfect representation of that individualistic pride. It would honestly be a little sad and contradictory to their message if they dropped it so soon and conformed into acceptably mainstream elegance, wouldn't it? I certainly wouldn't want them to lose their sound—they're only just over three years in.

But, here's where my theory comes in: though I was just talking about not wanting them to shift concepts already, I have a wavering prediction that their next comeback may as well be sleeker in sound and looks. There could be several reasons as to why the management decided to have the album teasers be so contrastive to the music video and title track, but in my opinion, it may have been strategically planned to collect intel on the public's reception to this change of concept for the girls. They threw out those teasers, but they made sure to play it safe with the music, sticking to their original style. They were testing the waters—if people liked that concept (and people definitely did), the files on 'queenly and opulent ITZY' may be kept and expanded on for the next comeback. Then, we'll have a taste of that side of ITZY sliding into the next release.

That won't be something I'm opposed to, of course, because I do think the girls look gorgeous like this. I just hold a tiny seed of fear that doing as such will result in the mid-ification of their so-boldly-defined sound. It's a sound that's not for everyone, but they've built a community of new wave K-Pop fans on it. I don't doubt their fanbase will stay standing if that original foundation fades into the years, but I'll feel a little sentimental. Where will we get our fair share of bizarre beats and teenage-spirited pandemoniums in the comeback pool, then?
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i rank the 2010s dream concert lineups in attempt to kill time as i await the huta comeback at 5 a.m. (it is currently 2 a.m.).

disclaimer: this is purely based off of my taste in groups and music and even my mood just this moment. i am, in fact, not putting that much thought into this, as it—once again—is 2 a.m., and i physically cannot formulate comprehensive thoughts right now, anyway. this will be a ranking of only the 2010s concerts for two reasons: 1) i feel like i'm not knowledgeable enough about the majority of the groups in the older lineups, and 2) the 2020s are simply incomparable—and for clarification, i'm not implying that either decade is worse than the the other, but the groups are just so different that it feels physically difficult to compare to the 2010s lineups.

1. 2015 namely combo: 9muses, lovelyz, 24k, bts, kara, monsta x, sonamoo, exid, secret, sistar, b1a4, vixx, btob
2. 2016namely combo: exo, halo, gfriend, tahiti, a.cian, b.i.g imfact, clc, 24k, t-ara, seventeen, laboum, nu'est, b1a4, vixx, btob
3. 2019namely combo: n.flying, 1the9, ilhoon, dreamcatcher, ab6ix, gwsn, park bom, nam woohyun, dia, the boyz, jbj95 (taemin and donghan on the same stage?)
4. 2012namely combo: boyfriend, teen top, kara, t-ara, ailee, ze:a, sistar, girls' generation-tts, tvxq, infinite, 2pm
5. 2018namely combo: rainz, younha, wheesung, iz, unb, uni.t, mxm, in2it, bigflo (the year of survival show groups)
6. 2017 (june)namely combo: nct dream, romeo, map6, b.i.g, snuper, oh my girl, april, wjsn, twice, btob, vixx
7. 2014namely combo: infinite, top dogg, c-clown, beast, rainbow, boys republic, halo, apink, block b, bestie, got7
8. 2017 (november)namely combo: baek jiyoung, b.a.p, wanna one, exo-cbx, trcng, weki meki, pristin, btob, vixx
9. 2013namely combo: t-ara n4, boyfriend, b1a4, u-kiss, shinee, rainbow, speed, girls' day, b1a4, btob
10. 2010namely combo: after school, ss501, cnblue, 4minute, kara, wonder girls, f(x), ze:a, shinee, beast, lee hyori, t-ara
11. 2011namely combo: seo inguk, 2pm, tvxq, iu, f(x), miss a, shinee, beast, f-ve dolls, t-ara

sorry, i sincerely don't know what this is. the white rabbit asmr videos were playing on the other half (more like two-thirds) of this screen the whole time i was writing, and she's so hot, so i was partially distracted by her face while typing and deciding these—even though, to be fair, i probably shouldn't be watching asmr videos if i'm trying to stay awake. for the record, i don't know what is special about those combos; i just wrote names that seemed amazing side-by-side to me and to my heart's content. i am so out of it. i want to say goodnight, but minhyuk is waiting for me… y'all…

oh well, onto my next item on the list of time-killers for the remaining hours of night.

also, expect an academic thesis of a review for boom within three business days. i'm pretty sure that, after i listen to my first huta comeback in real time, i will be irrevocably reformed.
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my sister has left for this outdoor nature summer camp today for two weeks (i'll miss her) and has requested for me to collect her hoyolab daily check-in rewards for her. little does she know, i'm no weak bitch, so i'll do her commissions and domains for her, as well. this will be a constantly-updating log to keep track of everything i do for her while she's away.

* all domains lv. 90, unless otherwise stated
* whenever i convert resin into condense, i always collect at least 5 or more crystoflies

day one: sun220626
hoyolab daily check-in
↳ daily commissions
↳ battle pass (lv. 20, lv. 21, lv. 22)
↳ expeditions (original locations; all 20h)
↳ parametric transformer (150 berries)
↳ teams used:
+ sayu, bennett, xingqiu, beidou
+ sayu, amber, xingqiu, beidou (for archery demonstration commission)
↳ resin used:
+ 60 on valley of remembrance
+ 40 on anemo hypostasis
+ 30 on lupus boreas
+ 30 on childe
+ 20 on forsaken rift for teachings of resistance
+ 4 condensed on valley of remembrance
↳ other notable activities:
+ ascended jean to 4th ascension; leveled her up to level 69; upgraded her skill to level 2; upgraded her burst to level 5
+ obtained an insane wander's troupe flower (crit rate, atk, crit dmg, energy recharge) from the anemo hypostasis; enhanced it to level 20
day two: mon220627
hoyolab daily check-in
↳ daily commissions
↳ battle pass (lv. 23)
↳ expeditions (original locations; all 20h)
↳ teams used:
+ sayu, bennett, xingqiu, beidou
↳ resin used:
+ 30 on stormterror
+ 30 on lupus boreas
+ 30 on childe
+ 40 on anemo hypostatis
↳ other notable activities:
+ crafted vayuda turquoise slivers and fragments into 10 chunks
day three: tue220628
hoyolab daily check-in
↳ daily commissions
↳ battle pass (lv. 24)
↳ expeditions (original locations; all 20h)
↳ teams used:
+ sayu, bennett, xingqiu, beidou
↳ resin used:
+ 4 condensed on valley of remembrance
↳ other notable activities:
+ ascended sacrificial sword to 4th ascension; leveled up to lv. 60
+ achievement: yo dala?
day four: wed220629
hoyolab daily check-in
↳ daily commissions
↳ battle pass (lv. 25)
↳ expeditions (original locations; all 20h)
↳ teams used:
+ sayu, bennett, xingqiu, beidou
↳ resin used:
+ 160 on clear pool and mountain cavern
↳ other notable activities:
+ sayu reached friendship lv. 5
+ enhanced noblesse oblige goblet (atk, hp, energy recharge, elemental mastery) to lv. 20; equiped to xingqiu
+ enhanced xingqiu's maiden beloved flower to lv. 20
+ farmed some treasure hoarders
day five: thu220630
hoyolab daily check-in
↳ daily commissions
↳ battle pass (lv. 26)
↳ expeditions (original locations; all 20h)
↳ teams used:
+ sayu, bennett, xingqiu, beidou
↳ resin used:
+ 4 condensed on clear pool and mountain cavern
↳ other notable activities:
+ enhanced favonius greatsword to lv. 20
+ ascended sacrificial sword to 4th ascension; enhanced it to lv. 70
day six: fri220701
hoyolab daily check-in
↳ daily commissions
↳ expeditions (original locations; all 20h)
↳ teams used:
+ sayu, bennett, xingqiu, beidou
↳ resin used:
+ 40 on pyro hypostatis
+ 3 condensed on clear pool and mountain cavern
↳ other notable activities:
+ collected realm currency
+ crafted furniture: pine-backed tea chair, red cedar curio stand
day seven: sat220702
hoyolab daily check-in
↳ daily commissions
↳ battle pass (lv. 27, lv. 28)
↳ expeditions (original locations; all 20h)
↳ teams used:
+ sayu, bennett, xingqiu, beidou
+ sayu, bennett, ganyu, beidou (for domain)
↳ resin used:
+ 4 condensed on cecilia garden
↳ other notable activities:
+ redeemed 2.8 livestream codes (DTNVKAWBWSF5, WANVJAFAXTER, HA6C2AFBXSZV)
+ ascended favonius greatsword to 2nd ascension; enhanced it to lv. 50
+ equipped new flower, sands, goblet, and circlet on ganyu
+ ascended favonius warbow to 2nd ascension; enhanced it to lv. 50
+ requests: 2 in liyue, 1 in mondstadt
+ cooked: 20 satisfying salad
day eight: sun220703
hoyolab daily check-in
day nine: mon220704
hoyolab daily check-in
day ten: tue220705
hoyolab daily check-in
↳ daily commissions
↳ battle pass (lv. 29, lv. 30)
↳ expeditions (original locations; all 20h)
↳ teams used:
+ sayu, bennett, xingqiu, beidou
↳ resin used:
+ 30 on stormterror
+ 30 on lupus boreas
+ 30 on childe
+ 60 on ley line outcrop: blossom of wealth
↳ other notable activities:
+ collected all daily stamina for "bouncing blobby slimes" web event
+ ascended sacrificial sword to 5th ascension; enhanced it to lv. 80
+ defeated an unusual hilichurl
day eleven: wed220706
hoyolab daily check-in
↳ daily commissions
↳ battle pass (lv. 31)
↳ expeditions (original locations; all 20h)
↳ teams used:
+ sayu, bennett, xingqiu, beidou
↳ resin used:
+ 1 condensed on cecilia garden
+ 40 on cecilia garden
+ 60 on valley of remembrance
+ 60 on ley line outcrop: blossom of wealth
↳ other notable activities:
+ collected all daily stamina for "bouncing blobby slimes" web event
+ ascended favonius warbow to 4th ascension; enhanced it to lv. 70
day twelve: thu220707
hoyolab daily check-in
↳ daily commissions
↳ expeditions (original locations; all 20h)
↳ teams used:
+ sayu, bennett, xingqiu, beidou
↳ resin used:
+ 100 on hidden garden of zhou formula
+ 60 on ley line outcrop: blossom of wealth
↳ other notable activities:
+ collected all daily stamina for "bouncing blobby slimes" web event
day thirteen: fri220708
hoyolab daily check-in
↳ daily commissions
↳ battle pass (lv. 32)
↳ expeditions (original locations; all 20h)
↳ teams used:
+ sayu, bennett, xingqiu, beidou
↳ resin used:
+ 100 on peak of vindagnyr
+ 60 on ley line outcrop: blossom of wealth
↳ other notable activities:
+ collected all daily stamina for "bouncing blobby slimes" web event
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I'm slowly clearing my BTOB music video watchlist. (Kill Your Darlings: check. Now, Days of Being Wild: check.) I must say, Show Your Love Changsub just became tenfold hotter than he already was.

Okay, it's been a while since I posted something new here—I've been wanting to, but I somehow just cannot find the time to sit down and ramble for hours on the keyboard recently. My public relations! My new projects! My homework! To be fair, saying it like this makes it sound like I'm a very productive and occupied person, but I'm not. Those things listed make up an incomprehensible jumbled mess in the midst of my life's timeline that is very difficult to work around, but that's a story for another time. There's a lot I need to catch this journal up on… That will hopefully be able to come soon. There's a lot I want to say, alright.

I've never done a movie review before, so I'm a little inexperienced in this, but I do have some thoughts I would like to share about Days of Being Wild (1990).

But first comes my staple unnecessarily detailed account of what led up to the moment I've decided to discuss here.
Let's start from the beginning: for the longest time, I had planned to check out some Wong Kar-wai movies, as I've seen exhibitions of the aesthetics, and they just seemed so wonderful to me. These are the colors and atmosphere I adore; I knew it was right down my alley after MAMAMOO's Wind Flower music video bestowed upon me a transcendental sensation. Then, of course, came the additional boost of finding out Changsub's parodied character in Show Your Love was, in fact, from Days of Being Wild.

Last night, after a day's worth of BBB (self-coined: Beatcom Bingeing Brainrot), catching up on the sweet selection of stages for the 220624 "Summer Workshop" Music Bank half year special (more Moon sibling collaborations… I am begging), and settling in to finally listen to the second season premiere of Korean Cowboys Podcast (it was the social media episode; I cannot say I agree with all of their points this time, but I respect it).

The film-watching-impulse seed was actually planted in the midst of my Chinese lesson—before I listened to KCP, actually, since I was doing that lesson's homework while listening. I love that Chinese teacher so much, but I still don't remember her name. I have gathered information for everything else about her, though, like: she's a '98 liner; she's from Sichuan but, ironically, can't eat really spicy things and gets teased by her friends for it; she has two 妹妹, but they're not her 请 sisters (she's a single child), they're her younger cousins, and they're both taller than her; she went to Thailand to teach kindergarteners Chinese for a learning program in her sophomore year of college, and since she's good with kids, they all really liked her and clung onto her leg to not let her leave; her favorite K-Pop group was EXO; she had a mini-phase in high school where she was obsessed with Ok Taecyeon, but she never spent money on idols since she got yelled at by her parents the one time she bought an album; she really likes the K-Drama Hospital Playlist; she watched Goblin, so she knows 陸星材 (very important to me—she thinks Sungjae's cute like a little brother); she covered Apink's Mr. Chu with her friends once a long time ago; she has seen Reply 1997, based on her description of the plot, but keeps calling it a different one because she gets the different Reply shows mixed up (she doesn't think Seo Inguk is that hot, contrary to everyone around her); her favorite and most built Genshin characters are Ayaka and Kokomi. Sorry, I'm getting sidetracked again. Also, I should probably stop because I realized how creepy this appears now.

Anyway, at some point, our textbook brought up Hong Kong, and I absentmindedly said, "I would like to go there," just trying to say shit and not thinking much of it. But, then, she asked me why. So, I kind of had to make up with a reason in that position. I simply brought up the fact that I liked Wong Kar-wai's film aesthetics, and then we ended up going on another side-tangent over this topic. I cited 阿飞正传 as the one I watched, and everything else she showed me as ones I planned on watching. The thing is, I have actually not seen 阿飞正传 at the time of speaking to her. I decided that my words here would officially condemn me to watching it immediately after the class ended. And so, I did—after speedrunning the assigned homework while listening to Aaron and Joel rant about social media and, when that podcast ended, to Younha's 2007 albums, because why not? (I just saw Sungjae singing 혜성 on a Beatcom episode earlier, so maybe that's what provoked this choice of music.) That is how I ended up browsing through every variation of 123movies for Days of Being Wild (1990) before, eventually, remembering that asianembed.io existed.

There are two sides of my brain fighting over what to ultimately get out of this movie: the first side is trying to genuinely appreciate it as the artful classic cinema it is in the most objective and local mindset as possible, and the other side is trying vigorously to make an entire Changsub-centric AU out of this. It has been a whole night and half a day, and I cannot tell you which side is winning as of now—it may as well be a tie, for all I can foresee.

No, but seriously, I'm going to let the mental illness loose for just a brief moment to admit that ever-so-occasionally my brain would flash the image of Changsub in the place of Leslie Cheung, and I would need to take a quick pause to start praying to god, or something… because damn. Hear me out: this could be a 섭민 and 섭룬 AU. Just think about it. And Hyunsik is Tide—holy shit, everything is coming together. Changsub as Yuddy is just a really hot concept, fuck! The Show Your Love music video director was so real for this; what the hell… they definitely knew what they were doing. Moving on.
 
So, this movie begins by introducing Yuddy through Sou Laizan. It's not long after their relationship crumbles that we are dropped in the midst of Yuddy's life. We learn more about him through the environment and the dialogue. Though well-off, his familial relationship is unsound. His adoptive mother is an awfully interesting character to me; I think some of my favorite scenes were the ones where he was talking with her—but more on that later.

Yuddy is a rash character; this is presented evidently in just about any action he makes—from the spouts of violence, to his refusal to maintain a stable relationship. Yet, he's not a figure that the audience can resent. I mean, come on, he's a young, nihilistic heartbreaker; what could be more attractive? He's a reckless player, but he is discontented. His physical needs, wants are all readily available for him, but through all this, he is still lacking love. And the one continual drive he had of finding his birthmother eventually lost its meaning when he realized that she did not want to meet him, so where can he go now?

(Yuddy is like a more unsympathetic—perhaps less dimensional—portrayal for the stock character of Kang Yina from Age of Youth.)
 
This movie concluded with several ends going untied. It wasn't meant to be a satisfying conclusion; it was supposed to reflect the unceasing continuity of time. When one tale ends (Yuddy's death), the others that were intertwined with his story still go on. Do Laizan and Tide ever reunite? Does Leung Fungying ever discover what happens to Yuddy, and if she does, what does she do then? What of Zeb; does he move on? These characters all lead their own journeys in the world, now. More persons like Yuddy will keep existing (as portrayed by Tony Leung's character in the final scene), and the wild days of youth never end.
 
The lighting was gorgeous—everything I expected. It was beautiful even through the shit quality I was viewing it in. I can't say I have much expertise in cinematography, but from what I could observe, the scenes all had the ideal overlay of an atmospheric cadence and evocative visuals; it was pleasing to the eyes and ears. Though, I'm not sure if it was just the camera lens, or if it was purposefully directed this way to show tension, but whenever two characters spoke face-to-face, they seemed unnecessarily close to each other—and yes, I mean in the scenes that aren't intimate. Like, when Laizan was sulking outside of Yuddy's apartment, Tide was, like, really closing in on Laizan, and I was like 'woah there…' That might just be me, though!

I can see why Wong Kar-wai also ended up directing some martial arts films. There was certainly a lot of smashing and crashing in this. I'm loving the cartoon punch sound effects during the train station fight. Not going to lie, this was not a movie where I thought I would be seeing bulks of violence, but even though some ofthe action was sometimes awkwardly integrated, it looked pretty badass; I'll give it that. 

Oh, time to finally talk about the scenes with Yuddy and his adoptive mom. They have an interesting relationship. Their scenes provided delicious food for thought. Between these two distinct characters, it's interesting to see how equally disillusioned they both are. Perhaps, Yuddy was influenced by his mother to become the way he is. Actually, that probably is the cause. Seeing his mother intentionally letting herself being played around by men who merely want to use her for money without even having a father figure himself is discernibly going to leave him commencing… fatherless behavior!

His mother is just as detached from her lovers as our main character, but unlike Yuddy, she has one person whom she couldn't come to terms with separating herself from for the longest time, and that was Yuddy himself. She resisted disclosing his birthmother's details, even when Yuddy asserted that he was upset with her inclination to "let [him] know a bit, and hide a bit." Rebecca plainly stated that she knew he, who has stayed by her side for the longest time out of anyone in her life, would leave her as soon as she told him. Yuddy was yet unfazed by this, in a way that implied to say 'Alright, let's die unhappy together then.' It was this conversation with his adoptive mother in that stuck with me the damned most. It was until sternly declared, "Unless you have died, then we will be happy," that she finally accepted that she cannot keep him. ("…for [he] is not [her] own blood," she knew he wouldn't stay.)
"I'll tell you who your mother is, now. I can't stand it any longer. You've always used this excuse before. You can't use it anymore. You want to go, right? Alright, then go. Go as far as you can. Don't let me know that you are cheating yourself."
Like mother, like son, they are both self-destructive in their treks through forsaken attempts at romance. Rebecca, knowing that her body is getting old, has resolved to make do with whoever can make her feel something even temporarily, finally settling once and for all with a decent man who wanted to bring her out to America. Yuddy, in his lively and still-energetic youth, would continue to hop around until his accumulated karmic debt catches up to him at the end of his short lifespan—a fleeing bird that was doomed from the start.
"There was a bird who flied and flied until it died. It never went anywhere, though, because it died from the start."
He knew his endeavors were aimless. He knew, yet he kept going—kept flying through streets and hearts.

And this brings me to the thematic bird analogy. It's perfect, I think—I can't imagine one that fits Yuddy better. Yuddy's final monologue coming full circle back to this very metaphor implemented into the story at the start is a common form of cinematic parallelism, but it is nonetheless striking here.
"I've heard that there is a kind of bird with no legs. It could only fly and fly… When it got tired, it slept in the wind. This kind if bird could only land once: that was when it died."
Yuddy was a nonstop seeker of thrills, of pleasures. He wouldn't rest—not for any woman, not even when his only known purpose of wandering was lost. He only flitted onwards, ramming head-first into obstacles if needed. Only death, as foreshadowed, could intervene in his endless flight.
"I've said that I never know which woman is my true love. I wonder what she's doing now. Dawn breaks—it looks fine today. How about sunset?"
This next line was interesting, though. In contrast to all cynical moves that we've seen from him, it seems that he does, in fact, believe that there is a destined true love out there somewhere. Despite that, he is utterly devoid of an urge to find her.

To close this off, I'll leave it with a final note of one line. Leung Fungying says in an argument with Yuddy, "A woman comes up suddenly, and claims that this is hers, that is hers; how can I know how many women would come up later? If one comes and says that you are hers, should I give up?"
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@TO1_offcl 2:00 AM 6/17/22 Twitter for iPhone: "[#Notice] TO1 활동 관련 안내"
Hello, this is WAKEONE.
We would like to inform you about the activities of our artist TO1.

WAKEONE and TO1 members had time to reflect on our activities of the past two years and think hard about the group's leap forward going into the future.

We kept all directions in mind and tried to find the best solution, and after continuous discussion, TO1 decided to take on new challenges through the re-establishment of team identity and refining the direction of the team.

First, members MIN SU, JEROME, and WOONG GI decided to leave TO1 and prepare for a new start after an in-depth conversation about team identity and direction.

As a result, three members will join us as TO1, including DAIGO and RENTA, respectively 13th and 16th-ranking contestants from PRODUCE 101 JAPAN Season 2, and our new youngest member YEO JEONG.

Starting with the release of a new album in July, TO1 will continue to actively engage in domestic and global activities, and we will continue to provide full support for TO1's activities in the future.

The members who left TO1 are artists with excellent capabilities and charm, and they are preparing for a new start. We will do our best to support them as our artists.

We ask you for a lot of support for all the TO1 members, including members who have left TO1 and are preparing for a new start, and members who are new to the team.

Thank you.

First, I saw the notice. Then, I saw the new group shot and got immense déjà vu to the last time they released an unfamiliar "profile" photo. Only last time, it was merely a name change—a thorough rebrand on the surface level. This time was a level 7 tsunami that devastated Getherland head on.

we're in hell )
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LEE MINHYUK (HUTA) 2nd Album [BOOM] track list just dropped today. i am making my predictions.

1. i'm rare
↳ rap track intro—the equivalent of hutazone in his previous album
↳ see: huta - hutazone

2. boom
↳ impossible to tell the genre at the moment, but since the album aesthetic reminds me of wonho's designs, i'm going to assume some type of sexy, bass-boosted deep house
↳ see: wonho - lose
↳ see: wonho - eye on you

3. shadow
↳ dark cunty
↳ see: hyoyeon - mystery

4. 넌 나의 봄이야
↳ sweet and soft, but not exactly sentimental enough to be considered a ballad
↳ see: nu'est - emotion

5. 그대가 모르게
↳ something simple and cute, or a ballad—it's 50/50
↳ see: ab6ix - off the record
↳ see: highlight - our eyes

6. 사랑일까요 (duet. 이창섭)
↳ most heartfelt ballad you've ever heard
↳ see: seventeen - i can't run away

7. 위험해
↳ cunty hype song hybrid
↳ see: huta - hang out (feat. soyeon)*
↳ see: sf9 - 4 step

8. real game (like messi)
↳ gay hype anthem
↳ see: huta - hang out (feat. soyeon)*

*NOTE: either 위험해 or real game (like messi) will be the hang out (feat. soyeon) equivalent of this album—or both?

9. 우리 함께 걸어요
↳ dare i say… ONEUL BAME?
↳ see: huta - tonight (with melody)

10. red wine
whiskey's cousin, or something jazzy and sensual like all day
↳ see: btob - whiskey
↳ see: huta - all day

11. 기다리고 있어
↳ my gut said ballad, just based off the title, but i know he's someone who's going to have more variety; i'm settling with hopeful and touching edm
↳ see: this playlist for examples of what precisely that refers to

12. 끝 눈
↳ gentle resolution; tender ballad
↳ see: huta - waiting for you

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Jun. 10th, 2022 02:25 am
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I wish I had started using Dreamwidth when I was the deepest in my ONF lore phase. They would definitely be my most used artist tag by this point. It's too late to import everything over now, since that would be much too exhaustive. My laptop starts whirring as soon as the singular Google Doc file that I shoved all my notes and theories on back in the day is opened… I don't think I should move some over here… unless…?

I elaborate unnecessarily graphically about my writing struggles.
There's an itch in my skull to revisit everything and perhaps dig some more clues out, even though I know that would be horrendous for my mental stability, let's be honest. But, oh, I had so much going. A hopeful sprout in me is determined to finish my lore-fic, and maybe this is the key to regaining inspiration. I noticed a while ago that I've gotten to a point where I hate thinking about that colossal Doc at all because it's… so fucking overwhelming. That won't do, obviously, if I ever want closure on this ONF lore route of my life (which is, in fact, a much more prominent gateway than a four K-Pop music videos should ever be on someone's life). Perhaps, more of that will come later… Perhaps, I'll reveal the 74-page, fully color-coded, multi-annotated map of my Fuse mind someday. Perhaps, I can finish chapter one of the fic rooted in this that I began in 2020 (on July 21st, so it's approaching its two-year mark very soon).

I can do it. I swear I'll be able to do it. I can theorize here, too. I can do it. I'll show it and prove it.

(The thing is: my main issue with writing is that I'm too much of a perfectionist. I know this is such a common and basic problem for artists of all types, but I never realized the extent of how painful it is until I'm experiencing this myself. I used to not think it was that complex of a problem—I would have probably told the person to "just leave it be; it's fine how it is!" God, if only I can bide my own naïve advice now. It's horrible; every time I want to make progress and write more material, I end up only rereading what I have and make tedious, minuscule edits to sentences or switch out word choices that no one would ever think about. By the time I finish all that, I'm too drained to create more. I promise that I'll do the actual writing next time. Next time, I end up falling back in this trap. It becomes a never-ending cycle—one that sounds easy to break out of when I say it simply like this, but it's most definitely not; I have tried for more than a year. But, whatever, that's a problem I'll have to find my own way of resolving, I suppose. I try not to think about it and pray that eventually, by miraculous chance, I'll gain a sudden insight and liberating inspiration that will set my disturbed mind free.)

On the topic of fics, this burst of motivation actually came while I was reading this infamous 257k-word VIXX fic that I have mentioned oh-so-amply in my past few posts. I think it's time I discuss that in detail—for my own sanity.

And this is the current logging of my absurd VIXX fic reading journey.
So, as of today, June 10th, I am at chapter 43 out of 50. I didn't read last night, nor the night before. (I needed to prove to myself that I still had that control over my life… I also needed to give myself time to calm down because my journey through reading the 30s chapters were singlehandedly the most intense experience of my whole current lifespan. Jesus fucking hell.) That was after reading every damn night until at least—at the very least—4 A.M. but usually later (earlier?). For example, Tuesday night left me practically pulling an all-nighter. I went to sleep at 9 in the morning but woke up at around noon. I felt like shit the whole day, and was it worth it? Probably because the batshit insane high was unstoppable! That left me off at chapter 42, of course. After several in-fic asses kicked, I decided to give it a rest there and let my soul heal for a couple days. And here I am now: absolutely no where near fully recovered, but the fixation on getting back to it is stronger than ever. Tonight, I'll promise myself a few more chapters, but my sensibility is subconsciously telling me to go slow for this last part. I've been going at this for soon-to-be-over two weeks straight—this fic feels almost integral to my daily life now—and I'm slightly worried about how I'll be able to cope with the nothingness that comes when I finally finish it.

Two weeks, huh… I swear it doesn't feel that long. Oh my god. See, I live-tweeted my entire read, from the start to where I am now, and fucking hell, I wish I could easily how many tweets are in that thread—my guess is that the replies have to be in the 400s by now. Either way, the genesis of this very thread is linked here. May 30th is insane. It feels like I've only been reading for a few days. Like, you don't get how crazy it is. I'm practically never able to read anything beyond 100k, Before this, the longest I've ever finished without a single instance of skimming was Children of the Storm by Ink-and-stars at 106k words—and possibly this Woozi/Seungcheol fic that got deleted, so I can't check—but, most of the time, I can only trust myself to stick to one-shot smuts or angsts.
 
Though, there's countless 'long' ones I have bookmarked and open on other tabs that are longer—the ones I thought I was thoroughly hooked on at the beginning, but ended up losing steam a little later into it. I didn't have the heart to get rid of it, so I always told myself I'd get back to them eventually. I'll make note of these here, just in case any of them one day receive the title of One Of The Longest Fics I Have Ever Read. These include, but are not limited to, Immortals by inkin_brushes (at work 4), celestial mechanics by komoonyoung (at chapter 22), and under the eyes of the moon by heartsighed (at chapter 3).

Also, for reference, that S.Coups/Woozi fic was my gateway to K-Pop fanfiction. It wasn't the very first K-Pop fic I read (that title goes to The Road by jamjoon); it was the second, but it was what truly drew me into the pastime of exploring the (sometimes questionable) wonders of Archive of Our Own. I'm not sure why it's gone (I feel like I somehow know that it was because the author's account got hacked, but I'm not sure how I know that, since I can't recall who the author was). I will try to delineate the plot, though, if anyone out there knows of it.
 
Basically, Jihoon was this technician (based off of BOOM BOOM music video, I suppose) whose car broke down while out in the middle of nowhere. While he can handle computers, he knows jack shit about cars, and was basically stranded until "mechanic" Seungcheol coincidentally showed up. Seungcheol's mechanic job turned out to just be a coverup, as he was revealed to be the leader of a motorcycle gang, and—well—things escalated from there. I remember that Jeonghan was Seungcheol's right hand man and had some kind of history with paramedic Jisoo, and I was super hooked on that side plot. (Yeah, this also served as my YoonHong awakening, and this YoonHongism would end up affecting me for the rest of my life, even up until now, but that's a story for another time.) Oh, and I'm also, like, 85% sure the rival gang was BTS members? Anyway, now that I'm reflecting on it like this, I really miss it… it was a good story. Damn… now, I want to try to figure out if it ever got re-uploaded.

Back to the main topic: I kind of want to go through that live-tweet thread and pick out the funnier reactions, for memory-keeping's sake.

Shall I?

I began reading with no intent of leaving any comments until the very end, where I can let all of my feelings flood out the gates at once in one big essay of a comment. That proved impossible as the feelings continued to build up, and I started caving at chapter 7. Then, sporadically, I dropped more comments on other chapters when I felt necessary—to add on to my private live-tweeting. There hasn't been a fic that made me this unable to shut up before… seriously. Anyway, the author replied to my comments a few times, and that made me happy. The latest one containing, "I have been absolutely living for your comments this week!!" settled my growing worries of being an annoyance flooding their notifications.

Ah, yes. Finally, the big reveal: the fic in question is The Watcher by lasif. It's a joyride of a read. I recommend it fervently.

This brings me to my VIXX binge. Oh, my swallowing VIXX content binge that I will keep trying to pretend came out of the blue, but truthfully, I know for a fact it was initiated by my ruination from this fic. And so, there I was: at the most ungodly hours of night, burning through nigh every Scentist stage they've done. That was a week ago. Now, I've fallen even deeper, scouring the trenches of their old reality shows and variety guestings.

More on this (VIXX spamming)—open at your own risk; I genuinely can't shut up.
I just watched some of the old, discontinued 1theK segments they were on and the MV Commentary for Error from Mnet. God, that shit was so fun. Why would 1theK stop Ask in a Box?

Last night, though, I impulsively started VIXX TV2 from episode one. I was basically begging my oomfs to tell me to stop, so I can gather myself and STAND UP! They did not. They only pushed me onwards.
@hutazcne 7:01 PM 6/9/22 Twitter Web App: "i'm normal"

@hutazcne 7:01 PM 6/9/22 Twitter Web App: "i'm not a starlight guys. i'm Normal 😒"

@hutazcne 7:12 PM 6/9/22 Twitter Web App: "IM NORMAL IM NORMAL IM NORMAL IM NORAML AND DONT START GETTING DIZZY WHEN I SEE HONGBIN SHIRTLESS!!!! IM NORMAL!!!!!!!"
@jungxiwoo 7:13 PM 9/9/22 Twitter for Android: "ah yes and i am not a 24u"

@hutazcne 7:15 PM 6/9/22 Twitter Web App: "in my defense i didnt know this episode was going to be error mv behind the scenes if i knew i wouldve been better prepared. they should really give these videos a short summary or something"
@hutazcne 7:12 PM 6/9/22 Twitter Web App: "guys help me like i need hekp i think i might end up watching all of vixx tv 2 if i'm not stopped ."

@jungxiwoo 7:13 PM 9/9/22 Twitter for Android: "DO IT! HAVE FUN!"

@hutazcne 7:16 PM 6/9/22 Twitter Web App: "theres like 100 episodes in each season and bitch i might"

@jungxiwoo 7:20 PM 9/9/22 Twitter for Android: "i am as everyone knows normal and i tell you to do it! who's stopping you? definitely no one who follows your priv theyre probably just as insane as you SO DO IT!!"

@hutazcne 7:22 PM 6/9/22 Twitter Web App: "the way i havent even watched the new huta log i can't already be cheating on minhyuk damn it's barely been a year /j"
Alas, not even one episode of VIXX TV2 later, Minhyuk and the rest of BTOB make a cameo on screen getting their win stolen by VIXX on Show Champion. Like I said:
@hutazcne 7:40 PM 6/9/22 Twitter Web App: "this was an omen god heard me talking about cheating on btob and made sure i would never escape from them even in vixx tv"
But, whatever—their thirty second appearance was cute as hell. I first saw Ilhoon in his silly little You're So Fly era overalls and beanie, and I spasmed for a second, like "What are you doing here?!" until I remembered that BTOB and VIXX were quite literally music-show-promotion buddies for pretty much their entire respective careers. Then, my eyes panned over the Minhyuk (all the way on the other side of the screen, for some reason)—whom, through this blurry ass video quality, I somehow thought was G-DRAGON for a whole second (because of his hair, maybe?) before deciding that notion was unrealistic because Jiyong would never be this animated at a music show. Minhyuk started kitty-pawing on Wonshik's arm when VIXX were announced for the win, and I hate to admit that that was absolutely a Minhyuk thing to do. Ilhoon also started jumping up and down; god, they're all so cute.

I miss when Jellyfish Ent. hard-subbed these videos, though, damn. Why'd they stop… Did the translator budget run out? They can soft-sub VERIVERY's show in four different languages but can only afford to translate every other sentence on the remains of what's barely keeping the RealVIXX channel alive? Damn… No shade to the berry boys, of course. I love them lots.

Here's a set of screenshots from episode 4 that I found hilarious. Hongbin is a fucking comedian. (Sorry, the captions are so small for some reason, but they clear up when you zoom in.)



Somewhere between episode 4 and episode 7, I came upon a revelation that Sanghyuk smiles like Eric Nam; I knew that eye crinkle and bean mouth reminded me of someone else for the longest time, but I couldn't put my finger on who!

Here is the subber translating what Taekwoon said into "shitting bricks". I'm not exaggerating when I say was hunched over giggled at this for several minutes. What if this is why VIXX TV stopped being subbed… Did Jelpi find out about this later down the line and fired this hero?



By the way, does this selfie not exist online? I tried searching for it and only found a crazy shipper fanstagram and every other picture of Leo and Eunji together except this one. Though, I did come across several other (heavily filtered) screenshots of this very image, so that led me to thinking that they might not have posted it… fuck. Anyway, Eunji looks so gorgeous with this hairstyle—Christ. I wasn't expecting to see her, and when she showed up I was totally gagged. She's so beautiful; she's so lovely.



Here is Hakyeon looking like Lim Seulong's and Lee Dongwook's sugar baby.



I ended up leaving off at episode 10 in order to finish up my final Queendom 2, once and for all. I am keeping track of my progress on MyDramaList. Place your bets on whether this VIXX fixation will last long enough for me to finish all 101 episodes. I'm betting not, but stay tuned.

记录, etc. )
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At last, this grueling journey has come to an end. It's probably evident by now that I absolutely did not end up getting up early last Thursday to watch the final live (because this post would've been out ages ago if I did). I tried my best to avoid spoilers on Twitter until I watched it, though. I was semi-successful.
(I did find it amusing how, not one, not two, but three of these groups simultaneously dropped their official comeback announcements that very midnight immediately after the final livestream closed. Not only that, Kep1er's and LOONA's release dates coincidentally happened to be the same.)
Well, I must admit that, in the end, I did not end up watching the full thing. I took one look at asianembed.io, saw the whopping three hours and four minutes timestamp, closed my eyes, exhaled a long and exhausted sigh, and dipped without a second going by. I'm sorry, Mnet, I am not watching all that. 
(Okay, this not completely the truth or, rather, it's misleading: I did decide immediately, when I laid eyes on the length, that I will not be watching the full episode. However, I did not click away close the tab instantly, like how the previous paragraph appeared to imply. I played the first thirty minutes or so while I finished up my daily Genshin commissions and spent away my accumulated resin, and then I stopped watching it, deciding it was about time I start writing what I can for this so that I can have one less task off my shoulders. By the way, absolutely nothing worth of note happened in those thirty whole minutes of the episode, anyway—to no one's surprise, of course.)
So, here we are.

First off, here are the track rankings first, as I promised last time.
From what I'm hearing, this final album can be divided evenly into two categories: noise music and non-noise music.
↳ The noise half consisting of:
  • Hyolyn - Waka Boom (My Way) [feat. LEE YOUNGJI]
  • Kep1er - The Girls (Can't turn me down)
  • LOONA - Pose
↳ The remainder—which spans across a variety of different genres—are:
  • WJSN - Aura ; the chillstep electronica enchantment
  • VIVIZ - Red Sun! ; the whimsical bossa nova-type
  • Brave Girls - Whistle ; the nostalgic tropical house mix

As a known equal enjoyer of both categories, this separation does not make the individual ranking any easier. It does, however, declare a constituent for which I can more easily quantify my partialities to each song. In other words, there's a lot going on in my mental rubric when reviewing music that would be a waste of time to attempt to explain, but this helps me even out in deciding which criteria set is in needed when I bother to dissect a tune.
(I also just thought it was an interesting observation because it very much emphasized each artists' energy line and highlighted their primary style… except LOONA. No, sorry, even after So What and PTT (Paint the Town), I still do not associate them with noise music. My internal attachment to their early songs is still too vigorous, even after all this time.)
Anyway, I'm quite keen on… all of these songs! This is a very satisfactory tracklist. I was thoroughly pleased upon my first listen. I went through the album fully a total of two times before the final episode, so any streaming votes I naturally casted were even for all of them. (I'm still a neutralist—despite the behavior I may or may not have displayed throughout my BTOB rampage during the ungodly Kingdom phase. That was not me; that was my evil twin… That was the Melody demon wedged in my brain clawing its way to the surface. He is resting peacefully throughout Queendom, though, so this is all of my unaligned ground in real.) After the episode aired, though, I allowed myself to listen freely. That was when I began my intricate buildup of these scattering tenets.

Purely based off my own attraction to the song—my music taste and my bias towards the overarching vibe—the ranking would look like this:
1. Whistle
2. The Girls (Can't turn me down)
3. Aura
4. Waka Boom (My Way) [feat. LEE YOUNGJI]
5. Red Sun!
6. Pose
But, to do a proper ranking, we'll have to take a deeper look into the technicalities and decentralize the personal feelings. While, most of the time, I'll find that my own bias reflects my thoughts on the song's overall quality, there will indeed be some differences. That will be obvious very soon here, in the official song ranking of the Queendom 2 final album.

Final (Music)
1. Whistle. I got jumpscared in the most unexpected way when I first heard this LMAO… are you telling me the first like didn't sound exactly like "WE ALL LIE…" I heard the Sky Caste theme for a split second, and I jumped. Anyway, that's not the point, sorry; that was just a jocular anecdote. Although I will admit that this song didn't stand out to me from the get-go (besides my Sky Castle war flashback), it grew on my exponentially each time I listened to it after. The more details I noticed and the more vibes I absorbed, the more vibrant this entire tune flared in my brain.

I've always been a tropical house lover; I'm sorry for being a basic bitch, but I have to admit that the summery EDM wave in K-Pop a few years ago was utterly my shit. What ultimately sealed the deal for me was the evident incorporation of legato strings in Eunji's rap after the first chorus and the bridge. Now, that is not something you often hear with the splashy pops of tropical house percussion. For the lack of an English word coming to my mind: 不愧是 Brave Brothers! I had no doubt there was going to be something genius in here the moment I heard "Brave Sound" at the beginning, but what I was expecting was not this. I think that was what made it particularly special and fit into the grandiose mold of a Queendom finale. With the violin in action, the entire atmosphere seemed to click into place for me. I see this as something to be played over SISTAR's Lonely music video.

Also, out of the six songs here, I think this one coincided most with the sound of the original artist, and I appreciated that! While that factor does not have any direct affect on these rankings, I think it did indirectly sway me a touch, as I had a nostalgic basis to draw upon. I feel like I'm back in 2017… I can imagine I'm on nugu twt… and this being my meaningfully-obscure-song-of-the-month that I would fancam the fuck out of on Twitter.

Hooks: 9
Production: 9.5
Longevity: 9
Bias: 10
RATING: 9.4

2. The Girls (Can't turn me down). Girls. Girls. Girls. Girls. Alright: I know what you're thinking, but JUST HEAR ME OUT. So, this is a rugged and turbulent song, and it sounds objectively awful… at first. When you really focus in on it, though, I swear it's not as shitty as its surfaces noises (and this statement isn't even the result of Stockholm Syndrome or brainwash—I came to this conclusion on, approximately, my third listen. Usually, if a song turn out to be a grower, it takes plenty more listens than that for the effect to begin taking root in me).

I feel like the laser beam/electrified plucking sounds weren't really necessary at the drop immediately. I would've rather the drop slide directly into the "Can't turn me doooo-ow-ow-ow… ow-ow-ooowowowown," and then, maybe, have the zappy laser beams come in after as a post-chorus breakdown—but whatever; it worked for the second chorus with the rhythmic rapping over it ("GOTTA KEP ONE!" [Mark Lee vibing GIF]). That makes up for it enough for my happiness. God, I know many people hate this one, but that is genuinely the only major complaint I have about it. Like, the vocal game was just fine in this, too, but it simply had the misfortune of letting the flourish it had be overshadowed by the more than distracting instrumentals. I loved the hooks; the melodies all sounded purposeful, that they were actually inserted at their positions with foresight. The underscores of brass in the first verse also struck a chord just right in my brain! It reminded me of the iconic loop in Red Velvet's RBB (Really Bad Boy).

While, yes, my bias points definitely racked this song up at least a solid two places (seeing how close some of the final ratings in following are), I will thoroughly justify my stance til the end! This is actually something I can see myself listening to regularly. Come on, guys, it's not that bad… These girls were born into the noise music generation; let's cut them some slack here—especially when this is good noise music.

Hooks: 9
Production: 8
Longevity: 8.5
Bias: 9.5
RATING: 8.75

3. Red Sun!. It's safe to say this was the most distinct out of the six, being the only one that didn't contain heavy elements of EDM. Bearing a near identical title (and now that I think about it, they kind of exhibit a somewhat similar sound, as well) to Brave Girls' previous round performance, save an exclamation mark, Red Sun! is a fresh and eccentric topping for this tracklist. It's a wonderful oasis of sunshine indie, storybook afternoons among British gardens, and whimsical tea parties in the midst of all this seriousness, isn't it?

And I loved this fantastical tang; it's something that they—as VIVIZ—haven't done yet, but they know it all too well from their earlier days. It was a surprise to hear this from them but also didn't feel unfamiliar at all. I can see this as the girls trying to keep in touch with their orchestral GFRIEND origins but not without the addition of a twist to unique to their new name—a twist that reminds me an awful lot of several pieces from IU's Modern Times album, which have clearly drawn inspiration from many movements of world jazz and bits of warm Caribbean chord progressions. Hmm… I think I'd like to compare Red Sun! to Havana, in particular.

See, after all this praise, I just hate to admit that this simply isn't my favorite genre, even back when I forced myself to consume massive amounts of Lee Jieun's music (for culture). I swear I love it dearly and will never skip it if it comes on. This may not be my most ideal sound but I still hold it deeply close to my heart. Plus, Eunha's high notes make me feel floaty and free, and the vocals are unmatched—so dreamy.

Hooks: 9
Production: 9
Longevity: 8.5
Bias: 8.25
RATING: 8.7

4. Aura. Okay, so this has to arguably the most basic song here—by that, I mean it sounds like it could be a typical title track for them and doesn't in particular hold the flair of grandeur I would expect for a Queendom finale—but the thing is: that doesn't undermine this song at all. While I'm typing all this, I haven't checked out the stages themselves yet (as to not let that have any influence on my opinions here), but I can see this being the framework of a wonderful performance. It has the storytelling laced in it naturally. I have high hopes for WJSN's final stage… I hope it takes full advantage of what this song is providing for them.

Aura is a rather tamed song, to be honest—almost ambient at parts if not for the crystal vocals piercing through and the soft drive of a marching snare. It uses the same whistling effect as Brave Girls' Whistle, but that supplement is, unfortunately, conceivably less requisite in this song. (I almost wish it wasn't inserted at all, so the deep and misty immersion wouldn't be shattered by a conspicuous high tone that calls for your attention.) I liked the hook very much: it was mysterious and alluring. I want to say it was, above all, "cosmic," but that isn't precisely true. More than spacey—despite the cosmological dialogue in courtesy of Seola at the beginning—I was gathering a stronger dark fairytale vibe. Let's say these keywords, and see if they resonate with anyone else's initial interpretation of this song: a curse, a kingdom, a monarchy, a myth, a secret spell, a chance.

The thing is, I know this should be my type of song, but there's just something inconceivable that offsets it from my cherished prime spot; I just can't put my finger on it. There was something imperfect about the chorus to my ears. Maybe I wanted it to have a harder drop and, therefore, a more amplified rush at the song's highlight? 

Hooks: 8.5
Production: 8
Longevity: 8
Bias: 9
RATING: 8.4

5. Waka Boom (My Way) [feat. LEE YOUNGJI]. Getting this off my chest first: that chuckle at the beginning was so hot. Other than that, this being the first song I heard impressed me a lot. This song is still energetic through and through—that's without a doubt. It's the kind that seems hilariously messy but conveys clearly that the disorder is the joy of it all: it catalyzes your brain juices and triggers a node that lets your limbs run loose. This genre was my ultimate shit at one point; back in my earlier K-Poppie days, this type of pure electrolyte fueled my life essence.

Hence, I'm just as shocked that it would end up this low on the list, but I think I'm able to pinpoint why this time… I hate saying it like this, because I don't want to seem like I'm targeting her or blaming her alone, but Youngji's rap ruined the whole flow for me. Like, I was so into it! The bass drum was swelling, the referee whistle was going at it, Hyolyn was belting, but then, the wonderful foliage of meshed sounds faded back for a sudden change in tone. It wasn't unpleasant or anything. just offsetting, and I feel that cutting back had a negative impact on the carnival hype it had been building up.

I like it for its obtrusiveness and its hardy effect, truly, but the composition has its weaker points and is definitely not the best work to sprout from this subgenre of my beloved disorientingly-noisy music. All in all, though, it has what it needs to make its moment in a competition! I think Hyolyn made a wise choice to close off her Queendom 2 run with a bang as prominent as this.

Hooks: 8
Production: 8.5
Longevity: 8
Bias: 8.5
RATING: 8.25

6. Pose. Oh my god, listen, I actually love the instrumental. This could been a whole banger if they took the arrangement down a different route. The hooks just weren't doing it… Actually, were there even full-on hooks? The yelling-for-a-chorus trick feels like an overused joke nowadays, and this statement isn't even directed specifically to this song. These power-chants can nestle just fine into some anthems, but I'm getting the impression that producers have been getting too carefree with throwing this formula around; it's simply not one that works for every hype tune out there.
Interestingly enough, Pose was also noticeably rap-heavy. Inherently, that isn't bad, of course, but it's just so unlike them—LOONA has never done this before. I can't say I'm not a little downtrodden. I can make a fairly backed inference that this was definitely not what the people were expecting—or wanting—from them. I sure as hell wasn't looking for something like this in them. I'm a little bewildered as to why they decided to fumble their bag like this. LOONA have phenomenal voices: a much stronger vocal game worthy of being exhibited—especially for this final round—than what this style allowed them to show! I wish they took advantage of their intrinsic astral elegance rather than conforming to the 4th Gen. hip-hop masses. It felt as if it was deliberately restricting their potential.

To sum it up, this song held the energy of a more toned down modern-age NCT 127 title track. Perhaps that prompts its potential as a grower (as NCT songs always are)… but for now—although I don't despise it—it's a solid last place out of these six, for me. It simply does not seem to suit LOONA and their esteemed abilities. 

Hooks: 8
Production: 9
Longevity: 7
Bias: 8
RATING: 8

Now for the stages—yes, finally. I began writing the above song reviews on June 5th. It is currently June 9th, a week after the final aired, and I am finally taking my first watch of all of the stages. I was going to watch them yesterday, but I ended up "accidentally" pulling an all-nighter due to binge reading this gargantuan, life-altering, heart-shattering VIXX fic (that you may have seen me mention in some previous entries… Perhaps, we'll hear more about my more-than-a-week-long sleep deprived journey through this magnificent 257k-word maelstrom of heartache and headache, in further depth on a future 记录 post, or something). Anyway, the point is that I was in no way the sane headspace to think properly, much less evaluate performances, and I didn't want the experience of my first time witnessing them to be dimmed by an anesthetizing sleepy haze.

Final (Performances)

1. VIVIZ. The last minute solidified my decision. I need to give immense credit to the creativity gone into the usage of the umbrella props—especially at the part with the 3x2 display where dancers opened and closed them and then rotated positions to reveal SinB! That was wonderful to my brain—like, I felt a sense of happiness akin to if I was a baby being played peek-a-boo to. And I thought that was going to be the peak of it, but a stupendous wave of euphoria crashed on me at the bridge (bubbles!) and continued to come in tides after. When Eunha struck that killing note, I nearly cried for whatever mysterious reason. The concept was lovely, and the bits of acting that went with it were endearing. The quaint choreography was a fresh sight, as well. It was all so, so cute. Above all, it stood out amongst the others for being so bright and airy and quaint!

2. Kep1er.
Hikaru is truly unbeatable. But, besides her (because I could go on forever about her, and I need to distract myself quickly like this), there were several components of this that stacked up to determine its final placing here, and I will to go through them. First: they made really good use of the stage, the spread and transitions from place to place opportune. Two: creative prop utilization again! Particularly, I took note of Chaehyun being lifted up and turned on the chair and Yujin and Bahiyyih walking on them as they were placed. Three: the raw energy was unmatched—perhaps it has something to do with this group being the youngest here and therefore still brimming with unreleased passion to prove themselves to the world, but the expressions and fiery vocals were top notch. Four: Hikaru (but we know this) and Youngeun—both of them were the powerhouse cells that gripped attention to this performance.
To be honest, it was kind of saddening how immediately noticeably this stage was a step up from the previous two (WJSN and Hyolyn, no offense) while I was skipping through the full episode trying to watch these in order since Mnet doesn't have it on YouTube somehow.

3. 
LOONAOkay. For a hot moment, it was very difficult for me to see anything else besides Hyejoo until I mentally shook myself awake… Jesus Christ, she is so hot. I really liked the dance break, and I liked the ending pose twist—that was cute. Now that I think about it, I surprisingly don't have much to say, yet my gut is solid on their placement here. Was I that swayed by their attractiveness…? No, there's a reason. While the bulk of the choreography itself didn't appeal to me all that much, each of them held impeccable charisma here and are—as we all already know—undeniably magnificent dancers. I also think that, out of the groups that used the elevating platform trick (which was… every group), their incorporation had the mightiest effect.
On an unrelated note, though, he camerawork somehow made it feel like a Kingdom or Road to Kingdom stage… I think it had something to do with the diagonal view at Heejin and Jinsoul's first rap and it panning to the other side of the stage for Hyunjin's part. I don't know, but something about that motion gave me uncanny déjà vu to a boy group stage—perhaps ATEEZ's Wonderland (Symphony No.9 "From The Wonderland)" performance?

4. 
Brave GirlsI couldn't keep a smile from my face. This, of course, wasn't nearly as impressive choreographically as some (LOONpler) and prop-wise in others (VIVIZ), but oh dear, did it have its charms. What really piqued my interest about this was the surprise dance break! That was not in the streaming song, and I knew immediately due to the sheer amount of times I listened to it already. The sudden twist to a Latin-inspired sound was definitely compelling. Accompanied by the lace they magically whipped out, it made a riveting interlude. I fell in love with Yuna right then and there when she snatched the fabric out of the air. The proceeding dance in the shimmery golden confetti was also a delight! That may have been my favorite part, alongside Minyoung's wondrous vocals, of course.

5.
WJSNAh… They get bonus points for the choreography; that was mesmerizing, but not much else about this performance was a stunner. As it turns out, I was wrong: there wasn't a phenomenal telling storybook embedded under this song, after all—the performance was just as subdued as the tune itself. It's a pity, because I really saw a lot of potential in what this could have been. Back to the positives, though: the dance was exceptional at more points than I can designate. I also enjoyed the backdrops; they were mystical and ethereal and fitting.

6. 
HyolynI'm not sure how this happened—maybe, she's getting worn out by now, too, and running out of idea fuel. Maybe, she's resigned, knowing that Mnet won't let her win anyway. Whatever the case, this was simply… underwhelming? I didn't not enjoy it, obviously, but I've never felt this bored by a Hyolyn stage. It had its highlights, yes. Although this stunt has been done multiple times before, I think that's the highest elevation I've ever seen a Kingdom/Queendom act fall from. That, alone, is impressive (and crazily courageous of her), yes. Ironically, Lee Youngji's entrance and verse was my favorite section of the performance, despite it being my least favorite part in the song itself. She brought the extra flavor and zest this stage desperately needed by now. Still, even with the supplementary force of Youngji's dancing and rapping, it wasn't enough to breathe the captivation and resplendence that the earlier Hyolyn stages were known for into this one. The ending was clever, though—I caught the reference of the setting coming full circle to her tropically spirited performance in the first round.

I never noticed how much shorter these could get if I got my thoughts on the song itself away first… Then again, maybe I'm just tired of writing by now because I had half of these stage reviews written down (and freshly out of my initial thoughts, as I jotted it down right after I watched these), but the page reloaded and none of it saved. Starting from scratch wasn't even as bad as the feeling of my heart dropping to my stomach at that initial moment of realization, but whatever. At least I have one more lesson under my belt on saving regularly on any material created on a computer. 

Last but not least, for the final time, here are my mom's and sister's list: a conclusion to end this entry saga.
Mom:
1. Brave Girls
2. Hyolyn
3. LOONA
4. Kep1er

5. WJSN
6. VIVIZ

Sister:
1. Brave Girls
2. VIVIZ

3. LOONA
4. Kep1er

5. Hyolyn
6. WJSN

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oh my god. i'm obsessed with 伐难. we know little about her, and we've heard her voice a singular time—and i am in love with her. (sorry, i'm not calling her bonanus… not after i saw all the comments on her fandom wiki page comparing that name to 'bananas'.)

today, i finished the 2.7 archon quest, all in one go. those last two cutscenes were impressive (i was actively losing my shit over yelan in the first one… expectedly. she's so fucking badass in action. and, oh, my beloved zhongli and his beloved xiao </3). that final one revolving around boyang and bosacius left an excessively lasting cut in me. i don't remember the last time i felt this engaged in genshin. my heart was so full; the five yakshas were so cute together? from the two happy scenes we saw of them together, i instantly developed some crazy form of love for their little doomed family. yeah, it's bad for me.

hot genshin takes or genshin takes on hot characters? )

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May. 31st, 2022 06:33 pm
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I want to document this surreal experience I had the day before yesterday. Fret not, it's a positive one! On Sunday, my dad wanted to take us to this restaurant that, unknowing to me before we left, was nearly an hour's drive away.

(He declared we should go that evening, even after I argued that it would be very busy since we would be there right at dinnertime and that it was a Sunday. He countered that it would be even busier tomorrow, since it's Memorial Day, so we might as well just go today. We went today. It was busy as hell. There were so many people around us, and it was so loud. I was bouncing my legs off, but we don't have to get into that. The food took another near-hour to arrive after we ordered, and in the meantime, I managed to like and look at every single one of Sungjae's current 266 Instagram posts, screenshotting multiple in the process. The food wasn't even that good. But, oh well—that's done and over with, at least—I got to spend time with my family, so there can't be real fault in time spent like that, right? I can endure some silly crippling anxiety to stack up on family-time-points. That's fine. And, I got some pictures of my sister standing next to this goose that wouldn't flee no matter how close we dared to get to it.)
 
Thus, it was also a nearly-hour-long drive back home—obviously, I hope. (I mean I wouldn't mind some spacetime continuum fuckery in my life to spice up my inter-dimensional immortal existence, but that wouldn't help with the coherency of the event I want to describe here.)

Surprisingly or not, I love car rides, for the most part. I can listen to the fuck out of my music, and if no one bothers me or tries to converse with me during the session, I will get so into it. Then, I'm able to enter this euphoric headspace where the music is literally coursing through me, and my brain feels like it's overloaded with the tidal waves of serotonin that are sweeping over it. I've measured my heartbeat a few times after some really intense moments, just to see if I was actually burning calories or something from sitting there because it sure felt like it, especially when I step out of the car at the end and my legs are wobbly and feeling like they just ran a marathon—exhausted, but in the good way. Anyway, you get the point.

Usually, during those music ecstasy sessions, I'm imagining that I'm witnessing the song live in concert, or even that I'm performing it. For Sunday's specific circumstance in question (that I swear I am getting to), it was the former. During those trips to and back that accumulated to over an hour in the car, I blasted the fuck out of a wide range of songs: on the way there, it was mostly Teen Top (I had a revelation of how emotional 미치겠어 made me… 미치겠어 out of all songs, though? Hm.), and on the way back, it was entirely SEVENTEEN.

I tried going for INFINITE and began Last Romeo at first, but was too exhausted to be feeling hype after being outside for at least three hours straight already. I settled on SEVENTEEN's (newer) non-title tracks that I haven't listened to as much lately, since I figured what better way was there to prepare for the concert—that I am definitely going to be able to go to, by the way. I'm definitely going to get good seats, too, and I'm definitely going to not mess up the fanchants, and my phone is definitely not going to die halfway through recording, and I'm definitely going to remember to bring my glasses, just in case. I'm definitely going to be able to relearn all their dances by then, and absolutely nothing is going to go wrong when I see them—than to go through the new B-sides that I've been slacking on. (By 'new', I mean everything post-An Ode.) But before that, I had to retouch on my ultimate SEVENTEEN favorite: Run to You, as we all know—also known as my ultimate K-Pop favorite.

So, guess what I put up next: Run to You and Together, back to back. Together is basically Run to You's younger sibling, and I love her, but I did not expect what she was going to hit me with that night. Run to You was just as powerful as always; it still made me feel everything it used to, but I suppose the sheer amount of times I have played it managed to placate the force of it, but never the intensity. I suspect that was why Together impacted me way harder than I could have ever expected—I haven't had it on loop for years like that; I haven't already picked apart every minute intricacy of its beauty and adorned my cochlea with it like I have already with Run to You.

I was listening to these imagining seeing it in person, at the concert in August, and my god, the Together scene I hallucinated did things to my heart. The sky was dark by then from these long ass car rides, so I was staring out my right side backseat window into the inked navy aether, Seokmin going at those beautiful notes in my AirPods, emotions already welling in me. I was in another realm at that point already. But then—but then!—came the bridge, came Mingyu's muted line, came Seungkwan's double tie into a high note, and then, the tears started flooding out—actually flooding out. I started sobbing in the car; I was going through it. I looked over at my sister and slammed my head on the back of the car seat and was like "LEA! This song is sooooodfjsdj goooddfjsfdnjkbfsjhekmdfdjwwww…" I'm pretty sure everyone was confused as shit; my mom was like 'what's going on?', and my dad glanced back for a second while trying not to crash the car. I can't remember what song came on after that because I cried through it for like a few more minutes, but that was unreal. That's when I instantly realized I was absolutely doomed to bawl my eyes out at the concert, whether or not this song is on the setlist (if it is, I might as well just not come out of that venue breathing).

Mind you, this will be my first time seeing SEVENTEEN in real life. The closest I got was at KCON New York 2019, but I had to leave before the second day started, which was when they would be there. I think I left New York the morning after they arrived, which means I was in the same city as them at one point—that was the closest in proximity I ever was to them. I also wanted to go to Ode to You tour in New Jersey so bad, but my mom couldn't take me in the dead of winter, so that didn't happen. (Back then, I thought suppose that disposed of my chance of ever seeing Let Me Hear You Say live, but it ended up not being on the setlist anyway… Either way, there's even a lesser chance that it'll performed this time, I suppose.) I've never heard them sing in front of me, and I can only imagine how magical it is. If my imagination could ruin me like this, I can't fucking comprehend the state I'll be in during the concert. I just hope my mind stays present through the whole thing.
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Alright, alright, let's go, let's go. I'm fully caught up on this show for once in my life, and I intend on doing the same with these reviews. No foreword because I haven't slept adequately for two nights and counting after picking up this new 200k word VIXX fic that I'm only a fifth of the way done with.
On this topic, Starlights are batshit insane good writers; it literally drives me nuts. This is in which I find can a new VIXX fic that changes my fucking life quite credibly every month—at the very least. No, because, at this point, I need to devise a masterplan to recruit the select Pulitzer Prize VIXX authors into the Melody fandom and start helping revive the forsaken BTOB tag. We're starving here… Please… VIXX and BTOB are, like, besties… Please do this for them; we need you so bad… It's barren as fuck over here.

Ahem. Back to the girls. I'll keep it short.

Round Three: Part Two

1. LOONA. I knew they would have their redemption arc on my rankings. These outfits are gorgeous; it's the perfect display of simple elegance. And Yeojin! Yeojin, my sweet angel, stole the spotlight. I understood their intention of wanting to keep close to the original song, but I do wish that the first chorus would've had more of a special twist to it. (The second chorus sounded wonderful, though.) As for the setup, the props were well-designed and distinct, the background selections were mystical. Of course, I can't forget about their unrivaled synchronization, even including the backup dancers. The spiderweb part is also something that definitely shouldn't go undiscussed: while it could've had a smoother transition, it was enchanting nonetheless and expanded eloquently on the theme. 
Okay, but on a personal note, maybe there was a bit of emotional lean involved in my decision, as well… I love this song and have many baby Orbit memories with it, and hearing it on here just made me so sentimental. These girls have seriously come so far… I love them so much. (I suddenly just had a fleeting image of Hi High being performed here and got a head rush.)
 
2. WJSN. I saw highly mixed reviews of this on Twitter. Honestly, I thought it was great! The camerawork did them dirty, though; I would have liked to see the curtain fall head on. The beginning was singularly amazing—I was actually wondering when a Queendom act would pull a more unique take on utilizing the environment, such as the synced backdrop choreography they displayed here. Although the stunts were thrilling and fantastic, the sheer amount of them cramped into one performance did make it a bit overwhelming. Then again, that isn't bad for this performance, I believe: the explosive spectacle could be what they were going for; after all, this was meant to be a bit of a showbiz extravaganza. I thought it was, overall, an enjoyable performance, a grand sight to behold. And, oh, it was nice to see my beloved Bona back on stage again.

3. Brave Girls. This was really nice. The Cinderella concept was clever—starting from the bottom and reaching the top through pure dedication and endurance, and now, they're here putting on a ball for the biggest idol competition show on Mnet. It's not just that; they put their all into this, and the underlying message was palpable. This was them pouring their hearts and souls out, not knowing whether it would be a farewell song or not. It was sincere and heart-grippingly sweet. I also think this performance aligned with the "FANtastic" concept the best out of the contenders. The VCRs themselves took up too much of the total timeframe for my liking, and for that, I nearly bumped them down to 4th place. Nearly. But then, I decided they deserved bonus points for the raw vocal category. The harmonization at the end easily shifted them up at least one solid position on this list.

4. Hyolyn. She is so good at setting up a scene, bringing an atmosphere, immersing the audience in her show. See, this is a brand new concept we haven't seen from any Queendom or Kingdom performance yet! That's what I like to see! (Okay, maybe I am a little bit influenced by my adoration for the personally-declared ingenuity of AOA's original Good Luck concept.) Hyerim's cameo was incredibly touching, especially after seeing her fangirl journey and how her aspirations led her to the dream she's living now. But for the performance, it added a heartwarming factor, which left this performance tender, but not exciting, per se. And, yes, this is the lowest Hyolyn has even been on my rankings… Though, I can't even say I feel disappointed in her this round or anything, either, since I in fact loved this. It simply did not compare to some others nor exceed her previous performances.

5. Kep1er. There wasn't anything phenomenal in this, to be fair. The gigantic wings were a nice touch, however. Dayeon's voice took me by surprise, too—she can seriously do everything. Of course, this wouldn't be level anywhere near the original's splendor in any department, but I deem it an acceptable remake, at least. I just feel like they could have done a more meaningful song for fans—like Shine, or maybe even O.O.O (if that wouldn't be awkward)! I know a fan recommended the song, but it still felt out of place among the other performances. This arguably coincided with the "FANtastic" theme the least out of everything this round.

6. VIVIZ. This feels harsh, but it simply did not bring anything to the table. There's one thing I have to note first: their vocal game was noticeably weaker here… what happened, besties? I wasn't sure if it was a mic issue or something, because they're typically on the game in that field. It's alright, though. That's not the centerpiece of my judgment. Eunha had a nice high note, anyway. The reasoning for their track selection was sweet, it really was: this will the first time Na.Vs/Buddies see their debut performed in person. The concept and format were nothing unseen before, though, and it lacked a true punch. The cheerleading stunts were cool, and the dance break was great. I just really have no meaningful impression of any of it after it ended. Either way, they worked hard! I'm sure this was a momentous sensation—to hear fans' real-time cheer on their re-debut—and I'm really happy they went with this.
 
I feel like I was meaner here than usual… I didn't mean to, I swear! Maybe, it's because I'm sleepy as hell, and Genshin Impact is still under maintenance (my Yelan is so close, yet so far). Can I make it up to them by streaming… all of their finale songs an equal amount of times so that it actually doesn't benefit any group and is pointless to actually do, yet I feel the need to contribute in some way or form so this guilt doesn't swallow me whole. I love them all, I promise! 

Now, the big question is whether I should wake up early to catch the final episode live or not… I have yet to decide. I better make that decision soon, though.

Once again, here are my mom's and sister's!
Mom:
1. WJSN
2. Brave Girls
3. Kep1er
4. LOONA

5. Hyolyn
6.
VIVIZ

Sister:
1. Brave Girls
2. WJSN

3. Hyolyn
4. LOONA

5. Kep1er
6.
VIVIZ

 — opening + round oneround tworound three: part oneround three: part twofinal — 

fri220527

May. 27th, 2022 12:28 pm
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This week has brought us two lovely, chill, atmospheric albums. They came in the form of Kang Daniel's first full album "The Story" and Baek Yerin's triple-track single album "Pisces", or "물고기". I have very positive views on both of them, which is a pleasant wonder!

Yerin Baek - "Pisces"
Let's start with Yerin: as you may or may not know, I'm not that inclined to the gentle indie scene of music. It's not that I dislike that genre, it just doesn't appeal to me nine times out of ten—to put it harshly, I find a great amount of them boring, no matter how tender the lyrics are. But clearly, that didn't apply this time! What I said on Twitter, with minor edits to expand:
oh, god. as soon as it began, it evoked a direct and distinct sense of nostalgia i haven't felt in a long time from music. it's spellbindingly simple and heartfelt. i'm not one who particularly fancies gentle songs like this, but i have to certify my love on first listen for it.

actually… i think those statements apply to this whole single album. yerin's airy voice mixed with her signature lo-fi style of instrumental and fuzzy mixing effectively puts you in a trance. the songs seemed to go by in an achromatic phosphorescent haze, but it leaves you in a peaceful headspace. perhaps, she's the blueprint of study-music…?
It was me

Hooks: 8.5
Production: 9.5
Longevity: 9
Bias: 9
RATING: 9
Pisces

Hooks: 8.75
Production: 9
Longevity: 9
Bias: 9
RATING: 8.9
The loved one

Hooks: 8
Production: 9
Longevity: 8
Bias: 7.5
RATING: 8.1

Kang Daniel - "The Story"
I also heavily enjoyed Daniel's album. His music has its fair, but grant, share of gems alongside the more middling pieces. (Actually, I think it's 55% hits to 45% misses according to my personal taste.) My initial review of the title track Upside Down was as follows:
just from the beginning, i thought this was going to be a snoozer, but the chorus was a pleasant save. this style of tide-like synth is usually a hit-or-miss for me, depending on the mood it's overlayed with. this just happened to be a hit!

this song is kind of hard to rate, because there were sections i really enjoyed, while the remainder of the song is unmemorable completely. overall, it has a satisfying atmosphere, so i'll look at it optimistically. i would like to hear how it fits into the album later.
…of which I still agree with for the most part! I think the beginning of the choreography is innovative and cute, though. I can imagine the crew remixing that intro and doing something slightly different to play with Daniel each time during music show promotions; that'll be fun. After listening to the entire album, Upside Down did indeed seem to nest more in place. I inevitably decided that it was a good ass album. Causally, a track ranking manifested a few hours later:
1. parade i need to know what this is about… i was getting 'welcome to the black parade'. reporting back when i take a gander at the lyrics; stay tuned.
2. the story same statement as for parade. both of those hurt my heart so much for some reason, and i don't even know the meaning. though, i might be able to guess the gist for the story.
3. don't tell (feat. jessi) jessi singing!
4. upside down see! it's placed quite high! no, but i seriously love the chorus so much.
5. mad (feat. chancellor)
6. how we live (feat. sokodomo) wannable side of my brain said kangaroo, which was something that took a while to grow on me, initially. but the minor modulation at the bridge blew my mind.
7. ride 4 u
8. 1000x
9. moment
10. loser (feat. dbo)

Other notable new tracks from this week that I enjoyed include I need you 2 by ESON, Don't Mess With Me by BVNDIT, i by LIGHTSUM, Touch by BLANK2Y, and Don't Care About Me by GOT7. A buried nugu treasure that I discovered this week was Nonstop by RoaD-B (courtesy of my main man, Nick from The Bias List). Some oldies-but-goodies that I revisited after a while of forgetting they existed were Cassette and One More Night, both by DEMIAN… as well as Inner Child by V of BTS.

记录, etc. )
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The much too delayed vocal and dance unit rankings—from yours truly—have arrived.

One foreword (also serving as a life update), and then I'll get to it: I just graduated—today, this afternoon. It was the worst thing ever. I hated the process; I found it pointless and unnecessarily lengthy. I get it's tradition; I get it's ceremonial, but what I don't get was how overhyped the event itself was… I felt nothing. I felt nothing besides the desire to not want to be there at that moment, but alas! I don't mean to intentionally sound like a cynical, unsociable emoboy, but I am resolved to think that there were no constituents of that whole event that made it truly worth going to—for two hours, in 85 degrees weather—besides, perhaps, sating my parents with some awkward photos.

Here, I proceed to unnecessary rambling that has nothing to do with the topic at hand
So, okay, it could have been worse, but I can list an extensive index of factors that made it an unenjoyable experience: having to sit in the football field for the whole afternoon, being cooked under a blazing sun that just so happened to be the hottest of this whole week, all while covered in the ugly gown and more layers of formal attire (what's the point of wearing that if we're draped in a fancy trash bag, anyway?), constantly having to readjust my cap because that thing would try to escape me any time the most minuscule breeze passed by, listening to the pretentious student council girl present her long shit poem (I need to point out this really specific thing that irked me from it. One part went something along the lines of "But it wasn't // But it's not". I hope you can see how uncomfortable this made me. What about parallelism? What about form? The second line was clearly set up to be "But it isn't", following the contraction of the previous line's "wasn't". That had me bothered for the entire rest of the time she spoke, up until I succumbed to the daze of the raking heat again), listening to the other slightly-less-pretentious student council girl give a speech on this school's accomplishments, and—perhaps the worst of it all—I missed the BTOB KCON Chicago Premiere livestream.

We technically weren't allowed to bring our phones, but it's not like they did security checks or anything. The issue was that my dress pants did not have pockets and neither did my suit. (They both have faux pockets, and that made me so mad… god, you sewed on an opening already, why not just make it a real? If this design doesn't include pockets, then don't put on the damn fake ones! What was the purpose!) In the end, I shoved my phone in my underwear, and it worked out very well. I hope Ilhoon and Hyojin in my phone case enjoyed the pleasant view of my cock they had during the whole march to the stadium and the waiting hours. 

If we weren't supposed to bring our phones, we most definitely weren't allowed to be listening to music. Guess who slipped an AirPod in his left ear halfway through the march. My sneaky, slippery ass; that's right. I originally was not brave enough to pull something like that until I saw a gay looking person in the line across from me clearly have one in. (I'm, like, certain they're gay, and not because of a functioning gaydar, but because I swear they were the person with an Interactive Introverts jacket yesterday at graduation practice.) Anyway, since I knew I probably wouldn't be able to reach for my phone anytime soon when I got to the stadium, I punched shuffle on BTOB's entire discography, and I let it roll. That music channeling to the one side of my ear was probably the only thing keeping me alive in that field for the following two scorching hours. My mom later told me that the whole fam could see me swaying and vibing all the way from their nosebleed seat at the very, very edge of the bleachers. I was not aware I was that conspicuous. Sorry, the Beats' Japanese songs were playing, and I had no sense of what was going on around me by that time.

Prior to me spacing out, though, was the nervous fretting over my walk up to the front for my diploma and the handshakes with four old men in a row. My cap was already loose because of my tiny head, and it kept nearly flying off whenever a gust of wind approached even when I was sitting in my seat. (In fact, it did fall off as soon as I stood up.) I was fearing for my life I was going to lose it as soon as I stepped up there, in front of the not-superabundant, but still quite plentiful amount of seniors and the crowd of their families. Another thing I was anxious about was my AirPod getting discovered. I originally intended to take it out when it was time for me to walk up, but One Sip was playing, and I couldn't just stop it. (Where are my fellow Christmas album lovers in the middle of May!) I thought that AirPod was pretty well hidden behind a chunk of my hair though, so it would probably be fine, right? Despite my want to write a funny plot twist right now, it actually went just fine. I thought I heard an ostentatiously loud kazoo when my name was called, only to later find out my cousins brought an airhorn. (They also told me they almost screamed "Genshin master." I am ceaselessly glad they did not.) By the time I got back to my seat, it was Beautiful to Me playing. And that's the story of how I was listening to One Sip while receiving my diploma.

Oh, also, when I sat down, I managed to take a quick peak at my phone. The BTOB KCON Chicago Premiere livestream on YouTube started twenty minutes ago. Gritting my teeth, I coolly closed my phone and stuffed it back in my underwear. By the time I was free, the stream was archived private. Let me in?!

On a completely unrelated note to anything mentioned, I am on day 15 of both my Duolingo and Drops streaks. I wanted to pick these back up to review a bit for a Korean placement assessment, as I'm hoping to test out of the elementary class (and only the elementary class). Besides that, I figured I'd just see how long I can keep it going this time. My previous streak record on Drops was 46 days. I doubt I'll beat that, but who knows.

Now that that's done and over, we're back to the topic. This half-round of Queendom 2 culminated to be the most difficult performances to rank, so far. I suppose this isn't an exceptional circumstance, as there were only three to choose from for each, so each placing held a lot more impact. But still, I encountered some of the most dilemmatic verdicts I've had to decide for throughout this season, and I still don't feel I have enough justification for some of these choices… so, please, go easy on me; I'm insecure about my rankings for this one, as well.

For the record, I made all of my final decisions before viewing the official results. I feel this is a needed disclaimer, this time, before reading onwards because… well. 

Round Three: Part One - Vocal

1. 우주를 품은 은하 (Galaxy That Embraces the Cosmic); VIVIZ and WJSN. Let's start with the vocals themselves, then move on to the other components of this stage. It was Yeonjung's voice that took the cake for this one. Each part was well-distributed among the girls. I think choosing Eunha for the killing "네가 좋아" of the bridge was an ingenious move; she's a fairy (and, I've never made this connection until now, but Eunha embodies Jieun's aura perfectly. Maybe that's why they so unhesitatingly decided on her). Yeonjung unarguably outshined; oh, she was scintillating. She, alone, tied the final knot to render this unbeatable for me. I love what Eunha said: "Her voice just explodes like a refreshing soda"—because those power sustains! That high note! I saw fireworks burst into bouquets before me. While Soobin had the weakest prominence, she still made her solo section memorable with her elegance (her flip of her dress in the wind!). I know she had some trouble with the high key during preparations, but her practice paid off, and she managed to keep her own space afloat between these two great scene-stealers. All three of them had a boldly outlined significance to the performance. (Soobin was on thin ice—the boldness of the ink was fading—but she still managed to maintain her relevancy. I love you, Soobin!)
As for the other elements I wanted to note: I love this song—perhaps that had a subconscious influence on my ultimate preference towards this. This song has began reminding me of Sunyoul, due to the sheer amount of times I've listened to his cover, so when I was watching the episode and heard them settling on this song, I impulsively perked up. When they performed it, I was even more overjoyed to hear they were able to replicate the same, exact uplifting energy of the original song! I also thought the stage setup was very attractive. Yeonjung on the swing, the pinwheels, Eunha between the blooming trees… they're so pretty. (I later found out that this was not a universal opinion, though—for example, my mom thought it was "太花了,太粉了"。And, okay, I respect that, too.)

2. 33; Hyolyn and Brave Girls. Choosing between this and 우주를 품은 은하 was the hardest thing I've done in my life. This is a performance to prove that simplicity has the potential to be just as powerful as any incorporated degree of complexity. The storytelling was clear, even with minimalist effects—even with just the two of them. (This is essentially the opposite of 우주를 품은 은하's stage brandishing—which is ironic, considering it was these two stages that caused the most strenuous quandary for me.)
Their voices go surprisingly well together, despite the contrasting timbres. Minyoung's throat clearly still wasn't in the best condition and was therefore unable to reach her maximum potential during the stage—which is a shame, but she pulled it off alright. I imagine the high note was what would've been the most worrying moment, but she hit it! During the harmonization, Hyolyn kept her on track, and mostly everything went discernibly smoothly. It was all very sweet, from Hyolyn encouraging her throughout the recording phase to Hyolyn guiding her through the duet. This makes it sound like Hyolyn was hard carrying this entire stage, but I swear I appreciated Minyoung's performance, as well—especially knowing that she was fucked over with COVID-19 not even that long ago. Anyway, the final hug was what got me; it was so precious and so intimate. It's so raw… yet so mellow and warm. They poured their entire youths into it; you could hear in Hyolyn's voice how personal this was. There was just so much emotion packed into this, and of course, part of it was thanks to Jiyoung's original lyrics, but their arrangement—and execution of it—was tremendously powerful. Hyolyn knew what she was doing when setting this up. I love Hyolyn because she always as a set vision on what she wants and will work her ass off to produce her visualized, unshakable result. If it wasn't clear to the viewers already, Exy's words spilled the precis: "I think that's why she wanted to perform with someone her age. They were looking back at each other's youth."

3. 해와 달 (Sun and Moon); LOONA and Kep1er. The harmonization was the glory act of this performance, truly. God, it was beautiful. For so many people, it was arranged wonderfully; their blend is amazing. Chaehyun's vocal control and technique is seriously phenomenal for her age. Unfortunately, I could not remember much else from this performance after it ended. Don't get me wrong, it had its emotional effect on me; everyone was crying, and I understood why. It was the radiant pureness of it all. I was near moved to tears by the end, as well. (Youngeun's serendipitous tear drop will go down in history. Actually, Youngeun in this, in general, will. I had always associated her with the dance position, and yet, she proved to be a perfect match for this job. She is the exemplar of an all-rounder.) This also ended up enabling me go and watch multiple EXO Planet stages of this song, a couple days later—for old times' sake. Many feelings were felt.
 
Round Three: Part One - Dance

1. 퀸이 나 (Queen Is Me); Brave Girls and LOONA. If there's anything consistent about me, I happen to always be a sucker for camera filter effects. Resultantly, this was gripping to my brainworms from the get-go. It was reminiscent of Brave Girls' MVSK stage—the neo noir, the femme fatale—and you know how badly down I was for that performance. Anyway, Hyejoo, I love you. She was remarkable at expressing what this song represented, and her visuals were indescribably immaculate for a concept like this. Eunji was inexplicably the cornerstone of all this, typing every portion together with her talent. Everyone just looked so good. (Though, I do think they fucked up Yves's makeup a bit—she looked more like a flower fairy than a sexy nocturnal cat—but that's besides the point.)
Perhaps this one gained particular favor because it was so different from the other two: it's more focused on slow, controlled movements and sleek charm rather than the wilder appeal of KA-BOOM! and Purr. This type of graceful and fluent dance is arduous to get fully synchronized, simply due to the lack of sharp movements and a defined beat integrated into each move, as every component slides into each other like one fluid motion; hence, the angles and tilts of your limbs are extra emphasized here, and any small deviation will appear to be a major obtrusion. Even with an increased difficulty on that part, they looked really uniform and organized. Monika's tiger coaching was fruitful, indeed.

2. Ex-it; Hyolyn and WJSN.
The compatibility of these three shocked me. Perhaps the former-labelmate-synergy kicked in when Hyolyn stepped foot back into Starship, because that harmony was unmatched. The blend of the props and outfits with the background was thought out with clever consideration. The neon accents reminded me of TO1's Hard Carry from Road To Kingdom! I need to say something, though… Yeoreum definitely stole the spotlight in this—yes, even from Hyolyn. Yeoreum, my little rapper… my fierce, little slayer who devoured. Eunseo deserved more screen time, though. I'm so proud and impressed of the Wujus for transitioning to this unfamiliar concept so well; I imagine after having done predominantly elegant and bubbly dances for six years and suddenly switching up to something intense and aggressive like this must be a trip. Of course, I don't doubt their dancing ability to pull off a new style of choreography, but being able to emanate the right energy and set a brand new type of atmosphere is something that comes less easily without a solid timespan of practice and adjusting. They did great, though! The final product still ended up just fine! There were no particular straying vibes; nothing felt forced or ostentatiously out of place from them. They can't come perfect, but oh, did I love Yeoreum's feisty energy. They were totally giving La Chica's daughters. Also, for the record, this is my favorite song out of the three originals for the dance units.

3. KeV1Z; VIVIZ and Kep1er. Okay, listen. This was great. Xiaoting ate. Hikaru has some of the best expression mastery I've ever seen for a rookie, and that finesse was so effectively utilized. Eunbi's energy was unparalleled; she understood the assignment. Umji was fantastic, too, despite her tribulations. The part with her and Dayeon was satisfactorily synchronized. This was just all just fine, but somehow, I did not feel hyped at all after watching it. This feels unfair, even to me, as I can't actually come up with an actual negative attribute to justify their placing at this final position. I simply was not feeling it—no matter how unprincipled this sounds. Maybe they were sabotaged by the choice of song… 
 
So, yeah, I was quite surprised when the real results turned out to be identical as my own. Like, I swear I didn't look at it beforehand and let it influence me! But, then again, it's not like that was extremely unlikely. There's plenty less combinations for a three by three arrangement than the original six by six.

(This whole review also took an extremely long time to type, for some reason. It took four whole sittings across the span of three days. I don't want to think I'm losing motivation already, but I might just be hitting some kind of… um, thinking slump? It's not even a writing slump—I have ideas, and I want to write—it's just that I cannot remember any of the words or phrases I want to use half of the time, and it frustrates me to hell and back.)

Just like last time, here are my mom's and my sister's rankings for each, because why not?
Mom:
Vocal
1. 33; Hyolyn and Brave Girls
2. 
해와 달 (Sun and Moon); LOONA and Kep1er
3. 우주를 품은 은하 (Galaxy That Embraces the Cosmic); VIVIZ and WJSN
Dance
1. Ex-it; Hyolyn and WJSN. 
2. 
KeV1Z; VIVIZ and Kep1er.
3. 
퀸이 나 (Queen Is Me); Brave Girls and LOONA.

Sister:
Vocal
1. 33; Hyolyn and Brave Girls
2. 
우주를 품은 은하 (Galaxy That Embraces the Cosmic); VIVIZ and WJSN
3. 
해와 달 (Sun and Moon); LOONA and Kep1er
Dance
1. 퀸이 나 (Queen Is Me); Brave Girls and LOONA.
2. 
Ex-it; Hyolyn and WJSN. 
3. 
KeV1Z; VIVIZ and Kep1er.

 — opening + round oneround tworound three: part oneround three: part twofinal — 
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sungjae collage

More of me bullshitting some analysis for school—except this time, I add my snarky annotations that cannot be included in the assignment submission for evident reasons.

Prompt:
Collage reflection paper
Once you have everything glued then consider the following:  
     a. Does you work reaffirm who you are?
     b.What area do you like best and why?
     c. What would you do different?
     d. How was this experience?
Write this evaluation of your work and post it to assignment section.
 
I believe it does represent myself quite well. The piece is bordered with an arrangement of gradients I like: of sunset hues to various tones of blue. The violet side towards the right is composed of more geometric shapes and sharp lines, while the blue side to the left flaunts a stronger flourish of organic forms and structures—such as a wild spectacle of flowers. The most prominent part is, arguably, two of my favorite photos of my man Yook Sungjae from his photoshoot for Ceci Magazine plastered in the center. He’s one of my favorite singers and celebrities and is quite a big part of my life, at this point, so yes, I do believe his presence reaffirms this collage to represent me more. A variety of fruits make appearances on this piece: peaches, tomatoes, blueberries, raspberries (see if you can spot them all!), all of which are some of my favorites! As one can tell, the fruits are quite near Sungjae in placement. This has pretty obvious fruity connotations that you can probably figure out by now. Oh, and the peaches symbolize his thick ass. One may also notice that the majority of the background bordering cutouts display the sky in one location, one time interval, one weather condition or another; for someone who intends on using my life to deep delve into space and astrophysics, the welkin means a lot to me. The last thing I would like to note is the cats. I’m a cat-lover. Those cats (somewhat camouflaged into the elements at first glance, but one is laying her head on Sungjae’s shoulder) happen to be the same cat. That cat goes by the name of Sami, and she is—not mine, but—Sungjae’s beloved pet. I would have printed out a picture of my own cat to accompany Sami if my printer didn’t run out of magenta toner, but alas. 
 
The segment I like best from this artwork is my paper cutting work. I’m unashamed to say I exerted massive energy and spent quite an extensive amount of time on meticulously trimming the flower petals and fruits shapes as to nearly revert it back to its transparent ‘.jpg’ clipart form. So, yeah; please relocate extra attention to any single bud you see and admire the unnecessarily pristine cutwork I put into those. As for my favorite area arrangement-wise, it will have to be my ingenious idea of attaching Sungjae and his cat in the midst of this madness. 
 
Something that began bothering me partway through the process was certain imprecisions of placement. One eminent example—that is on the verge of making this piece become almost unbearable to view for me if I continue to mull over it—is that the leftward Sungjae should have been inched a slight bit to the right so that he covered more of the empty space behind the orange flower. Another thing I would like to do better is the cutwork around Sungjae’s hair; that was only sloppy because, at that point, I’ve almost been completely drained of energy due to working on it for the past six (YOOK?) or more hours straight without consuming any sustenance besides the headstrong spiritual willpower to manifest Sungjae's and Changsub's arrival at Chicago for KCON soon.
 
This experience… this was certainly a project that I would not have thought about doing if not for a class’s obligations. Originally, I did not intend to spend this much time and effort into it—my agenda today was to quickly finish an assignment and get it over with. That all changed when I had the animalistic impulse to print out Sungjae—no reason or rhyme, just Sungjae in my mind. Then, this became oh-so serious to me. (In other words, I fully intended to half-ass this assignment, until I felt an inexplicable, spontaneous, and unwarranted pull… and printed Sungjae out. Then, it became serious to me.) While I must say: it was taxing, though that’s probably my own fault for going at it for six (YOOK?) hours consecutively. (Music was the only factor keeping me stable during that session; ironically, I was not listening to Sungjae nor his boy group’s songs. I was binge listening to SEVENTEEN's entire discography on shuffle, for the most part, in preparation for my plans to see their concert in D.C. now that they announced their tour dates. Before that, though, I listened to ASTRO's full album comeback four times. I would come up with a review on it, but I regret to inform that my thoughts on most of the songs are relatively middling. I did enjoy the cunty insertion of More and the slightly less cunty—but still cunty—Something Something.) In the end, though, I created something I actually feel unsatirically proud of, which was not something I was expecting from a class I merely took for the credits. Like, this is probably, at the same time, the funniest thing I've ever done and the most brilliant thing I've ever made.  I spent a ridiculous amount of energy on this, which, I think, shocked myself more than anyone else because half of the time, I barely have the strength in me to keep myself alert enough to realize I'm existing. Thinking back to this afternoon now, it's still insane that I did that. Something biological in me shifts whenever I have Sungjae in mind. Here's to Sungjae for fueling the artistic outburst? Whatever the case, I doubt I’ll ever be doing anything like this again—the motivation has come once, in a burst, due to graduation pressure, and will be well lost to the wind after this. However, this is certainly a project I’ll end up cherishing.

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